I want it to happen. I really do. He means so much ♥ ... but I'm afraid

[fallingstar009]

I had a really bad dream about Richie last night. I went to see him .. surprise him. He opened the door in his robe and he didn’t look happy to see me and then I heard -her- voice

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[awehla]

We all want different things for ourselves we all want better and believe me I know about negative thoughts. You need to be happy for yourself and you don't need Richie to be happy, I have a boyfriend and you know how I still have problems but David is a good support for me and he cheers me up. You should take a risk with Richie, maybe ask him, do you want to meet me or what? Obviously put it nicer than that but you need to know how he feels about you, I think a lot of what is causing you pain is the not knowing, it must be so frustrating for you!

Lisa
x

[fallingstar009]

It is really frustrating at times.
I'm not sure how to go about it really .. we have talked about it but I guess its this whole internet thing - not knowing how the person's expressions are and all that .. I try to be myself on the phone according to how the other person is. If Richie sounds good (as in happy-like) I will speak openly. Its like he's hiding or shy or something and its funny coz he would speak openly earlier and I would be kinda shy.

I'm afraid if I bring this up it will bug him and I really dont want this to get us to fight again (which most prolly might happen) I still want to see him .. like a part of me still does - He told me he would be happy if I popped in but I'm not sure how things are now so .. I guess I'm going to have to wait for a bit. I need his addy too (need to put down the address on the visa application form)

[awehla]

Don't you have his address already? I find that odd. Also have you guys ever thought about writing proper letters to each other? I think that would be kind of romantic and you can be more honest without worrying about being shy. It would be nice if you could send each other birthday cards and stuff too and litttle gifts.

Lisa
x

[fallingstar009]

No I dont and I never thought of that :O *slaps forehead*

Eeeps that has excited me lmao. I'll send him an e-mail right now!

[smarties_2087]

you feel??

what do you mean you fell???

baby!! *hugs*

[fallingstar009]

Like when you fall for someone .. dont quite expect it to happen but it does happen ...

[smarties_2087]

oh ya...i do know

[country_hick3]

u have been worrying over richie u have to think about what is best for u look at your future for yourself were and when u wanna attend colledge and if u need my help with the colledge here im more then willing to help gimme a shout if u want to talk or to ask for help

[fallingstar009]

I know :( but I cant help it sometimes ya know.
Thanks Paul - you've been such an awesome friend to me ♥