There are some times in life when you see something or feel something that makes you just want to curl up and cry. Usually it involves a bit of a broken heart. Last night began that for me. Well i shouldn't say began... it began a while ago. Sometimes I hate being me and feeling sad. Sometimes I hate that I am so trusting and loving and then I ( Read more... )

Last night was a bad night. I was so sad and I cried and I couldn't stop. It is silly really, but what set me off crying was that I was 2 minutes over in my speech interview. Honestly, yeah it sucks cuz I will lose a lot of points for that, but I'm not gonna fail because of it. So why get so concerned? But I began tearing up... and then I ( Read more... )

Sooo... definitely woke my ass up at 6:45 am this morning to get to campus by 710am for the stupid ass mass communication pre-registration and found out that I had the wrong dates. That sucks! No... actually it is worse than sucks considering the one class I need to graduate is already full. And this is the SECOND time I have screwed up signing ( Read more... )

So, at a point stuck somewhere between yesterday and tomorrow I am awkwardly trying to bridge the ever increasing gap. It's funny all things in my life seem to be at this awkward stage where everything isn't quite what it used to be but it hasn't quite yet become what it will be. I dislike this stage greatly. And apparently, many of my friends ( Read more... )

Today was an ok day. Nothing great or fabulous, except that suddenly the weather has turned EXTREMELY cold. Oh, and I am doing this instead of just writing my speech. But I've just got too much stuff on my mind. So I am making the decision to stop. Stop the madness. Stop the fun. Stop the action. Til I get shit straight and figured out. ( Read more... )

It is hard to sit back and wait, when I know what I want. I just have to wait until you know what you want.

And that sucks.

It's amazing really how fast time flies. I had a good chat online today with one of my best friends from england and god I never realized how much time passed since we had talked really. summer is the worst when it comes to dealing with time because before you know it, whoosh, it is over. school has began with a rush, all too much of one I'm ( Read more... )

Tuesdays make me want to fly over the edge of a cliff ( Read more... )

Soooo, I should technically already be back in Mankato for any of those who have been talking to me lately, but instead I am at my parents still sitting in a messy livingroom updating my livejournal. Go figure. No, basically what it came down to was I was pretty much having a panic attack about leaving my house without really being ready to go and ( Read more... )

Well in one week I will be sitting in beautiful northern minnesota and i can hardly wait!! Unfortunately going to the cabin also means that summer is winding down and I can hardly believe it. It has been absolutely hectic here lately, hence the lack of postings ( Read more... )