For Once. I really wanna be on top of things. For once, I really wanna be motivated. For once, I wanna have good grades. For once I wanna do things right. For once I wanna make everyone happy. I wanna WANT to go to school, I wanna sleep good, I wanna quit pretending for everyone. I want things to be good. I wanna be in control of things. For once ( Read more... )

Wow. Things are ...... GOOD. Especially compared to my last entry.  I went to michigan for two weeks in august, and that was splendid. Spent a lotta time with Dan in Chicago and that could NOT have been more amazing. Also bonded with Catie Spurr alot.

Got back here and went straight into football where I met soo many new guys. It was fun - I work ( Read more... )

i

am

A L O N E

no if's and's or but's about it.

fuck it.

trust is just a F A D E D memory

Things have cleared up on the Will front a little. My trust is kind of broken. Even though there's no proof it should be...there's just also no proof it shouldn't be and thats where I have a hard time. I'm working on repairing things . . . and I hope that he puts in as much effort as Im trying to. I know I fucked up along the lines too.

AND on the ( Read more... )

August 3 - 16. Yup. M I C H I G A N

Got in a HUGE fight with Will today. I don't deserve that bull shit ( Read more... )

I wish I hadn't left a mess at home. Now I have to figure out how to clean it up. Joy.

My mom was looking at tickets for me to come home today =) will edit with dates later. But I know I'll be in Chicago with Dan from August 9-14, so yeah. & football starts here the 17th. (the dates she was looking at was the 6-16)

I met the coach today. Wow, I ( Read more... )

So, I still feel like a stranger here. Mostly because I can still smell the scent of the house, so it reminds me that it isnt mine. I feel like I should be headed home any time now.

Not that going HOME would be better now. I like how you guys waited til after I moved to spread rumors. Explain that one to me? I know you read this, so I just wanted ( Read more... )