A look back; [NOVEMBER/DECEMBER]. A look into: JANUARY

[faded_poetry]

Well, I haven't really posted a proper entry here since, forever. 
HAPPY 2012 everyone. :) Much love, blessings and strength.

I will attempt to have a quick recap of everything since my previous post (before the L'arc newspaper clipping one). 
There were a couple of times in November that I had wrote in draft (un-posted) and eventually deleted. I did

Comments

[nez]

your company works you so hard it's awful. but therein lies the reason why your colleagues can be so selfish - it's a survival tactic so they can cope with the workload. what a vicious cycle :( [do move to greener pastures .inc when the time comes okay]

even though my work isn't as hectic as yours, i did find japan very, very quiet. maybe not literally, but my heart and mind were peaceful and quiet, even in osaka. maybe it's just so hard to find space and quiet in singapore.

(when i imagine l'arc in singapore i think of people forcing them to eat durians and tetsuya running away and hyde making grossed out faces -_- but i also think mbs will appeal to their inner evangelion fanboys.)

ahh actually i'm really worried about taking leave to go hk during such a busy period, but i cant help but feel psyched anyway :D hang in there rin! much of what you said really resonates with me - cheesy as it is, that's what l'arc stands for, to me: having the courage to believe in and pursue your dreams :) 我们一起敢敢过着彩虹人生吧！

[faded_poetry]

Hahaha, yes, a lot of times when I describe Japan as peaceful and people go HUHHHH~~~ it's not exactly literal, but its a beautiful surreal, tangible sense of peace that hangs around me when I'm in Japan. The idea of waking up and taking a long walk to the station excites me, and then there's walking back from a long day, in the breeze, with very little human traffic once you get out of the station.

LOL@ the durians. I hate durians, i can't imagine. I eat them occasionally when I feel like it and in the comfort of my home but i'm not a fan. I wouldn't buy them. lol

BE PSYCHED ABOUT HK! hell i'm psyched about bangkok! can't wait to hear the sawadee! from the boys! <3
Yes, let's chase our rainbow colored dreams together. Both with the band and in life. I'm excited to see where it brings us. :)

[killingsound]

Rin dear, this post had me so worried at the start, but I should have known with you, you would beautifully, magically see the hope and promise in things. Inez is so right; your current employment is running you ragged. The job certainly is fascinating, and can send you in great directions and provide you with fantastic experience, but if it's so soul-draining, then I don't want to see you wasting away there. I hope there's another place right around the corner, waiting for you, that will help you on the road to making your dreams come true.

I have no doubt that whatever it is you want, you will find it. If anyone has drive, you do. And fortunately, you have the wonderful friends to support you. And you have the smarts to work it out, too. If you want to live in Japan, or always have music in your life, then it'll happen, in time.

You are an inspiring person, even when - or especially when - things are hard and don't go your way. Jia you, you can do it.

[cheesin_crazy]

I love that you have such strong will and perseverance to tackle all the problems heading your way. But if the working environment is such a cutthroat, dog eat dog world then I hope you will manage to find better job at other companies cause u deserved better and I doubt the office politics and conditions will change.

It's good that you have a motto to remind yourself to live for your own self. If I ever get a tattoo, it'll be "memento mori" - to remind myself that death is just around the next corner. Haha.. it just sound so morbid especially compared to yours. But that's just the way I am.

I might be able to make it to the Singapore concert, depending to my schedule cause I have a battle to fight in my studies. But I'm definitely going to HK concert, still can't believe it's happening!!

Take care, dear. Hopefully we will all be able to attend Singapore's concert. =)

[a_deux_vitesses]

Oh Rin, you had mentioned to me in your PM that November had been horrible, but I never imagined just how bad it had been for you, I'm so sorry *hugs* You're truly amazing; the workload was insane and your co-workers did nothing at all to help finish the projects, and even so, you managed through. I do hope you can maybe find work at another company soon though, I want you to be much happier than you are there now.

Again, I'm really glad you found some inner peace in Japan, and I hope you still have most of it now, being back home.

But the one thing that is worth fighting for is a dream. It doesn't matter what kind of dream, or how silly and insignificant it is to others.
This, so much. I know that whatever your dream turns out to be, that you'll be able to see it come true.

Your new tattoo is beautiful and so is its meaning~ It's great that 2012 seems to be a great year; take care dear ♥