i have never wanted to leave here more than right now.

appearantly i am fat and lazy.

i miss my dad.

today i paid a man 92 dollars to put holes in my nipples.

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

it's funny how some word lose all meaning if you say them over and over..... it's scary how some don't

it's been a year.....why hasn't it stopped.

I'm sitting here staring at a teddy bear. jealous.

He is for ever. I will end.

this is stupid...really really stupid...

so i got a computer and all i can think about is all the fun things i can download now.....mostly porn,.......still......happy

I confuse myself, sometimes I feel like I could never feel things, others I feel like I'm way too emotional ( Read more... )

sometimes I just want to tell eveyone everything. Open up. Allow everyone to see who I am. I don't think I ever will, as I am scared. Admitting that it's self was hard. I am afraid to feel. Don't get me wrong. I get Happy, I get Sad, I get Mad. but sometimes it seems like that is the limit to it. Someone once asked if I even felt emotions i made of ( Read more... )

the following is the article i wrote for my journalism project in writers craft. it is titled Super Gay ( Read more... )

'cause nothing makes me feel prettier than vomitting into a porecilin bowl.

why didn't i kiss her?

we went out, things were great. why didn't i kiss her? i liked her. i really did. i would have liked things to work out, but i know they couldn't have.

she was the first girl i thought was beautiful.

would she have kissed back?