fic: Diamond in the Sky | PG-13 | chap. 01 |
Title: Diamond in the Sky (Turpentine - Chapter 01 of 13)
Author: faberrys2
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Rachel & Quinn
Summary: It's something deep, something Quinn can't deal with, something Rachel can't control, and neither of them can explain. | Missing Pieces | A little AUish | femme slash alert |
Disclaimer: I don't own Glee, I wish I did. I'm writing this just for fun, and the only thing I ask in return are reviews.
A/N: Thanks to everyone who is reading this, I really hope you continue to like the story. Reviews help me know what's working and what isn't. Will also help updates come sooner. ;-) So review away… Oh, and again… English is not my first language. =)
Song: Turpentine - Brandi Carlile
| Prologue |
| Chapter 01 | Chapter 02 | Chapter 03 |
| Chapter 04 | Chapter 05 | Chapter 06 |
Turpentine
These days we go to waste like wine
That's turned to turpentine
How long had it been since Rachel had last heard that sound? She didn't know for sure, it had been years, maybe five or six, she didn't know for sure. Rachel was sitting at her desk, doing some homework, and the tap on the window startled her. It was unusual yet familiar. It was like a ghost of a memory, and she even wondered if it wasn't her mind playing tricks at her.
But it wasn't, her mouth fell open when she turned on her chair to find Quinn Fabray standing outside of her window. Quinn waved her hand shyly as if saying hello, as if asking permission to come in. Then Quinn rolled her eyes at Rachel's shocked expression. Must she always be so dramatic?
In silence Rachel went to open her window, and they stood quiet for a while. It was weird to stand in front of the girl who hours earlier Rachel had confessed to trying throwing up just to be beautiful and thin like her.
I watch you grow away from me in photographs
And memories like spies
And salt betrays my eyes again
Rachel was beyond confused. They hadn't been friends since they were eleven and Quinn decided that she was much cooler and popular for them to keep being friends. At the time Rachel had felt broken and betrayed, but she had learned to cope with those feelings and in the process begun to hate Quinn for being such a cold bitch, and later to envy her popularity and beauty.
Quinn on the other hand wasn't confused at all, she knew why she had come to Rachel, but she was dealing with so many feelings at the moment that she just didn't know where to begin. Yes, it had been cruel the way she had just dumped Rachel for new friends, and they weren't even cooler then Rachel. But she felt kind of pressured to become someone popular, someone that Rachel just hadn't been born to be.
But Quinn's world had literally turned upside down, she knew she was at the edge of a cliff, that she was about to fall from grace. And she needed a friend. She could have gone to anyone, but she didn't want to be with anyone. She wanted Rachel. She wanted that true friendship they shared when they were kids. She wanted that crazy little girl who would hold Quinn when she couldn't stop crying. She wanted that only person she had ever loved truly.
I started losing sleep and gaining weight
And wishing I was ten again
So I could be your friend again
The silence was starting to get to Rachel. She liked to talk. She would talk if she was excited because she needed to share excitement. She would talk when she was calm because talking was soothing. And she would talk when she was nervous because again it was soothing. She would be talking right about now, but there was something really wrong going on.
Rachel couldn't explain what she was feeling, at the same time that she was excited that Quinn was there for whatever reason she had come, Rachel was also worried. She was worried because she could see the tracks of dried tears at the blond girl's face. She was also worried as to what she was doing there, was that a game? Like those bring a geek parties. Was that a practical joke? Was she about to be humiliated?
I heard you found some pretty words to say
You found your little game to play
and there's no one allowed in
"I hope it's ok I climbed your window?" Quinn finally broke the silence, but Rachel still seemed to be unusually out of words. "It just felt so wrong to use the doorbell."
"What are you doing here, Quinn?" Rachel's question was blunt. For the first time in her life she didn't know what to say, so the prospect of small talk sent shivers down her spine.
"I'm pregnant…"
The confession came out almost as a whisper. And it triggered something inside of her, not much long after she said those words, the tears started to pour down her face. Quinn felt embraced, she had no right to come at Rachel's, drop this bomb on her and expect anything remotely close to friendship from Rachel.
But Rachel's heart was too warm not to do something. And even though she still had doubts that maybe that was a cruel joke. That maybe Quinn would suddenly start laughing and say, "got you!" Rachel just couldn't ignore her instincts. Deep down inside Quinn was still that eight year old little girl from a troubled family, a girl who would come to Rachel when she needed a friendly shoulder to cry on after hearing their parents fight.
And it only took a tear filled glance from Quinn to get through Rachel's defense and make her hug Quinn. The blond felt the familiar warmth of comfort, which made her cry even more.
"It's ok." Rachel said, hugging her even tighter. "It's ok, you can cry, I'm here for you."
"Why?" Quinn's question sounded more like a moan. Like a child who had just hurt her knee. "Why are you here for me after all the horrible things I've done to you?" Rachel was about to answer when Quinn continued. "Why are you being so nice? You should throw me out, tell me to get a life." Quinn was shaking as she spoke, Rachel didn't know if it was from crying, or if it was from pouring her heart out.
"How could I?" She answered sweetly, stroking Quinn's hair to try and calm her down. "What you've been doesn't matter. You're vulnerable, you're shaking and you need a friend right now." As if by a reflex, Quinn held Rachel tighter. Maybe she was afraid Rachel would let go for some reason. "And I'm here for you."
And they fell into silence again. After the tears stopped coming, they sat together at Rachel's bed. Quinn rested her head on Rachel's shoulder trying to calm her nerves as Rachel stroked her delicate arm trying to adjust to the news. It was shocking, but she felt sort of happy that Quinn had come to her, even though Rachel didn't understand quite why. But it wasn't the time to ask those kinds of questions when there were so many others that needed an answer soon.
"Is it Finn's?" Rachel asked out of curiosity.
"It's what everyone would expect, only it's not." She answered as Rachel felt the tension bubbling up beside her. Sensing that Quinn was about to have another meltdown Rachel hugged her again and started rocking her gently as she would do to a child. "It wasn't Finn, we haven't even had sex yet, oh my God, I don't know what I'm gonna do!"
Rachel reached out to wipe the tears from Quinn's face. "Boy, you really are in a mess, huh?" Quinn simply nodded. "How did it happen?"
"I've done a lot of stupid things, Rachel, and sleeping with Puck wasn't the first."
"Noah's the father?" Rachel tried to sound shocked, but something about it was just too cliché.
"I don't understand why I let it happen, I just… I… I felt pressured. I didn't want Puck to call me a tease. And maybe I was a little excited because he was so different than Finn. Maybe I was a little drunk… I… I don't know there's nothing I can say to make this sound any better."
"Are you gonna tell Finn?"
"I have to, don't I?" Quinn said looking straight into Rachel's eye. "I gotta go…" She got up and moved to the window. "I gotta think, I need to… to… I don't know what I need that's why I need to think."
I didn't mean to waste your time
So I'll fall back in line
But I'm warning you we're growing up
Rachel let her walk away, she just watched in amusement. She was completely stunned by what had just happened. And for a short amount of time, Rachel could feel a little happy to have her childhood friend back.
But unfortunately, as the new day came, Rachel discovered that Quinn was back to doing the same mistakes she regretted so badly the day before. After Rachel got slushie facial from no one other than Quinn. And the cold look she received from the same person she had let back into her heart made Rachel want to curl up and cry.
And just when we believe we could be great
Reality it permeates
And conquers from within again