anyone want to keep beverly company tonight? anyone? i'm in an awesome mood. i'd like to share it. :)

i hate feeling this way. a day or two of feeling really good, always followed by more than double that of depression. fuck this shit. i don't know what to do anymore.

today's reflection is no more hopeful than the rest. i'm left feeling a bit...unfulfilled i guess. everything in my life right now feels like daggers. it not only affects my mental health, but my physical well being. i ache. my heart, my head, my body. i starting to feel like a shell of the person i was. i don't like me anymore. i don't like where ( Read more... )

so today is your birthday. you're not here to celebrate. i miss you so fucking much. fuck. i love you. happy birthday donovan ( Read more... )

i hate that i only update when i am upset. my life is in shambles, and the only thing i can do is write it down on here. my boyfriend broke up with me motnhs ago. that's fine. i'm back in school, and it's a little challenging for me. that's ok too. i'm single. i feel good being single. it's refreshing almost. the thing i can't deal with is that my ( Read more... )

life is never fair. and i don't really expect it to be i guess. but the thing is that i would like for it to just every once in a while work out the way i would like it to. Maybe i don't really know what i want. i'm really confused. Everything important in my life that i had planned has changed. i don't know. it's late. i'm rambling. and after a ( Read more... )

well, once again, i am on the path of being single. just when you think everything is going so fantastically, you get smacked in the face with a break-up. in the same night, i lost my best friend and my boyfriend. maybe we actually will stay friends. maybe it's not forever that we have broken up. who knows. we did both agree that a break from each ( Read more... )

i'm sorry that every entery is depressed rantings. it;s not all that i feel. a lot of the time i feel really good. but i guess the only time i ever feel like writing is when i feel bad. i feel bad about so much that i am surpised i don't write more ( Read more... )

why is that the second that people get alcohol into their system they start being stupid (myself included)? Sometimes being drunk is fun...but it's not fun when it gets in the way of how you interact with others...alcohol=stupid. it's time to stop drinking alltogether. not just me, but others in my life as well... as i said before:alcohol=stupid

so, i have deleted a few people from my friends list. these are people who have not talked to me in the past 6 months to a year.i don't really feel that this needs to be justified, so if it makes you mad that i deleted you, i'm sorry. keep in touch more....