i just realized by reading back that i used the word defunkt almost a year ago here

ironic

finially finished the set of paintings that ive slowly been working on since august.  3 panels, 20 x 16 each.  mounted them on the wall on top of a long strip of red fabric taken from a bad memory....  and lighted them up with a long florescent bulb from underneath ( Read more... )

I feel it on the inside ( Read more... )

as black as the night can get ( Read more... )

I'm about to break.
This is my fate?
Am I still doomed to a life?
Of misery and hate.

You would have never known.
What I've done for you.
What you may put me through.
I'd do it for you.
I could have never lived.
If it wasn't for you.

- lift my head up.  eyes wide shut, wind in my face.  and march on...

my public declaration:

i will officially stop feeling sorry for myself starting today.  it's done, over, gone.
i deserve better than this. i no longer need to treat myself the way i have been.
this was not my fault.  there is nothing i can do about it.  i will raise my head up and walk on.

mr. self destruct has decided to be mr. creativity.  here are the results:


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TRANSITING Saturn takes about 2.5 - 3 years to pass through a Natal house. During that time, you may experience lessons and a maturing process in the area of life indicated by that house. Every 29-30 years Saturn returns to the position it has in your natal chart (natal return). This is often a time of maturing, and the start of a new era in our ( Read more... )

(get the song here, my personal live at folsom prison live upload  to you:
http://s47.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=2Q7IZU8PQTFVX1Y1ORQMVFOP80From the backdoor of your life you swept me out dear ( Read more... )

heh, all gone.
ah well.
just sharing:


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