Comments | eudoxia: You remind me of the babe with the power.....

eudoxia

You remind me of the babe with the power.....

Apr 22, 2009 20:59

I am happy to say that my life will never be considered monotonous. My life is not boring, or makes a bad story. My life will make a great memoir someday. It's full of joy and angst, and fear and love. It's full of the entire spectrum of human emotion. And with all great feelings and great things, you must tolerate the bad with the good ( Read more... )

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tamakay April 23 2009, 03:46:46 UTC

Wow, this is a great post. And woohoo good going on the 20+ pounds lost, that is amazing.

eudoxia April 23 2009, 05:27:43 UTC

Thanks. I appreciate it. Sometimes I think it is a female thing that we sit around and dissect ourselves mentally and try to change ourselves into this ubermensch and we never quite live up to it; then we slip back down the hill only to crawl up it again. I call it the Sisyphus complex. And it's futile.

I'm tired of being Sisyphus, I'm ready to be the ubermensch.

BTW grats on 10 years this year. I am very happy for you. May your celebration be filled with less drama then ours was! Lol. It's what you get when you are friends with musicians and artists. It's part of what makes this all fun.

tamakay April 23 2009, 21:59:52 UTC

'However, I do believe I am getting closer to being a person that I am proud to be. Hell, maybe even a person I like. Yowza.'

This is my goal.

eudoxia April 24 2009, 02:08:12 UTC

It's surprisingly hard!

concertfreak April 23 2009, 16:06:50 UTC

If you can't use English, have you tried using Japanese or Chinese to describe how you feel about him?

that is awesome you got all that stuff cleared off your credit, and you got the amount for erik.

eudoxia April 24 2009, 02:04:52 UTC

I could try Engrish?

We much happiness and love I give you biscuits of joy!

paisli April 23 2009, 18:07:10 UTC

This is awesome.. all of it! Well, except the work stuff, but it'll all work out :)

eudoxia April 24 2009, 02:04:19 UTC

yeah, it'll work out. I am going to give it a few more weeks. I really don't want to have to find another job. I love my job. I like my coworkers and my boss and my job. I would hate to have to change all that.

msdivamarie April 24 2009, 00:53:51 UTC

Living in fear is to live without risk....and that is boring as all hell!

Stick your neck out and dare people to bring down the axe. Stare in to the abyss and when it sees you yell "Hellooo down there! Anything new?!" Tune in to the Interzone and listen to Dr. Benway, even when he doesn't have your best interest at heart. Accept the responsibility of adulthood, but refuse to grow old. Work hard, play hard. Take your personal demons to lunch with the promise of an all-you-can-eat buffet and then feed 'em salad, just to see what happens. Praise be to Bob or [insert deity's name / favorite crutch here]. Be spontaneously pragmatic and passionately ambivalent.

The risks are worth the rewards AND the lessons. I wouldn't be here without those lessons myself and the baggage? It gets smaller every day.

And when someone doesn't approve, tell them to fuck off, they're just jealous. Then dance circles around 'em. They HATE that.

eudoxia April 24 2009, 02:03:30 UTC

Welcome to LJ land. It's a place full of angst and drama!

I am currently and always have been more of a fan of the journey than the destination. My first 32 years have been a journey. Filled with lessons, both good and bad. Also filled with love and loss and ecstasy and agony. And yeah, sometimes it sucks, but I wouldn't change any of it.

I am not yet the person that I want to be, but I'm getting there. Besides, once you get to the destination, you just have to find somewhere else to go. And I'm not done being where I'm at yet.

So yeah, I am in a mood lately. I would rather worry about this existential crap then credit reports and lawsuits. This at least will get somewhere. Talking to Experian is like talking to my cat.