You've added quite a bit to this chapter since the first time I read it and I like the way you've fleshed out all the problems Jensen has at home with his mom. It's heartbreaking how Jensen seems to be living for the few hours he's allowed to be with Jared each week and how he can sense the problem his mother is having accepting what happened to him. She isn't dealing with it and she isn't letting Jensen deal with it in any way so it's just festering inside of him. My heart aches for him.
I think that was the hardest chapter to write for different reasons. Trying to get in the head of a five years old is even more difficult than a seven years old -kids change a lot during their first years, anyway in my mind, the difference of two years is huge. Since Jensen is so different from Jared, more withdrawn and anxious it was so difficult to word it like a kid would do, or think
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Jensen's mother stopping the therapy and trying to separate the boys makes sense in a twisted logic way. She wants her son to forget what happened like she wants to forget what happened, but that's not going to happen. Ever. He needs therapy and he's already self harming and suffering from anxiety. That's only going to get worse.
These Saturdays with Jared's family just highlight how chaotic his mind is without his friend. Poor little boy, his mom thinks she's doing the right thing but she's not. She needs to be in therapy, too. She must be feeling incredibly guilty about letting this happen to her little boy even though it's not her fault either. It's tough to read.
Ah, I just started reading this and I feel like crying every paragraph. The characterization of the boys is so clear and rings so true. Just ughhh. I want to smack Jensen's mom, he's just a confused, hurt little boy. I think it almost seems worse for Jensen than for Jared because Jensen is so much younger and had so many fewer tools to deal with all this with. I love the nod to SPN of Jensen not speaking, and it so unusual to see Jensen as the younger one needing care. he's always the one taking care of Jared.
Anyway, long rambly comment, all of which to say, wonderful job.
Thank you so much for taking the time to comment, and for showing your appreciation. I don't want to spoil the rest of the story to you, but what I wanted to do, writing it, was to show how the consequences of something so dramatic happening to these two young boys can be very different, depending on the support they receive afterward and the attitude of their closed ones regarding it. You'll see it all through the fic. And of course, you're right, it's worse for Jensen in some way because Jared is well surrounded, older, and has a family equiped, emotionally, to deal with it.
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These Saturdays with Jared's family just highlight how chaotic his mind is without his friend. Poor little boy, his mom thinks she's doing the right thing but she's not. She needs to be in therapy, too. She must be feeling incredibly guilty about letting this happen to her little boy even though it's not her fault either. It's tough to read.
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Anyway, long rambly comment, all of which to say, wonderful job.
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I hope you enjoy the rest of the story.
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