it never fails that the new eyar will bring something new and maybe excited but so far the new year will be the same as the last. i will fight and live trying to make tothe next year in hopes that it will be better than the last. i have come to the conclusion that i have failed to makethe past year and seven months that is that i do not get nathan ( Read more... )

i have come far from a day ago. i am past the longing past the wanting past the tears. i have grown and i am more i am stronger and i need us no more. i have found 15 min. of peace and with that i have found a sort of twisted happiness without you. i still wish that you were here with me and that you love me still but i realize that, that nathan ( Read more... )

i think im going to go have my self committed for a few days. to licoln trails or somewhere. so, i'll talk to you when i get out.
mousie

why. why is the only question that i can not answer at least not to the fullest. my head spins with uncertainties nothing but confliction goes through my mind everyday. which that makes no sense to you but that ( Read more... )

i have to move on i have to stop torturing myself. it's over i need to deal with that it hurts soo much but i have to let go. im tired of playing games i don't want to feel this way anymore i just want to be happy. please just make all this go away. i really think what happened between us wasn't all together us. i think that since he was moving to ( Read more... )

unfortunately i have lied lied to everyone else and myself i tried to say that i was ok with the fact that i let you walk away but im not i miss you i need you but you need your space and im ok with that but 2days, 2weeks, 2months, 2years i love you and i need you. and strangely enough i will wait the rest of my life for you but i don't want you to ( Read more... )

it's the hardest thing to watch you walk away never to turn around and see my crying face never to turn around and allow me to see the soul in your eyes one last time. no one understands what im saying when i say that i see his soul in his eyes.i love him but he is not who he once was. he has changed and so have i maybe we are not what we seem, the ( Read more... )

Insignificant: nothingness ( Read more... )

you need to get a fucking grip on reality not everything is going to go your way. get the fuck over the fact that life sucks sometimes. this oh kill me bullshit is just that, bullshit. you need to grow up and move on. you know what I"M tired of liars and pretenders. you need to take a look in the mirror. you don't like me don't pretend to it's ( Read more... )

It's Been A While ( Read more... )