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[hopeorfaith]

Wednesday, December 9thBloody miserable day. Bin a lot of 'em lately an' I'm sick of it. Not in a good mood t'day at all. Syl came past yesterday an' told us Miss Wanda's shacking up with the fuckin' devil. Cos Tez doing that wasn't enough fer 'im, apparently. Syl was pretty shook up about it and said we couldn't go stayin' with Wanda. Could've

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[tess_thiess]

I dunt know what I would 'a done these past couple days without Johnny. But Tuesday night he came by and he seemed almost mad at me. He told me I better stop messin' 'bout, that she loved me and I had best just go over and apologize, that I'd done wrong and there wasn't any gettin' past that. I told him I knew that and he just shrugged and asked if I'd told Kate that.

But I still dunt know how I can go talk t'her, not 'n see that disappointed hurt in her eyes, knowin' I let her down that bad when I told her how I loved, when I showed her...

But I need t'work, and I need t'eat. I dunt want t'cook on my own, though, and so I came up t'the cafe quick, my chest feelin' tight, but Kate wasn't here when I got in. It's fair t'empty, which is strange, but there's some girls I think I recognize. I step over t'em 'n clear my throat. "Afternoon. Are - you're the ones as tell fortunes, right? From the Carnival?" I wonder 'f they'll know me from workin' with Syl. I dunt think so, but then lots must 'a seen her 'n me 'n Kate on Sunday.

[hopeorfaith]

Some farm girl comes over.

"Afternoon. Are - you're the ones as tell fortunes, right? From the Carnival?"

Should prob'ly give 'er the spiel we usually do, but I'm not in the mood.

"Unless there's another set o'Siamese twins wanderin' 'bout town, reckon you've found the right ones," I say, an' get out a packet of fags. Light one an' inhale. "Was you lookin' t'get a readin'?"

[tess_thiess]

One 'a them looks up, but it's the other one as talks. "Unless there's another set o'Siamese twins wanderin' 'bout town, reckon you've found the right ones," she says flat 'n pulls out some smokes. "Was you lookin' t'get a readin'?"

My mouth tightens some. "No, I was just lookin'," I say hotly. "Why else would I be askin' that question?" It's easier bein' angry than sad.

[hopeorfaith]

Oh, this is off to a great start.

"No, I was just lookin'. Why else would I be askin' that question?"

"Well, duckie," says Faith, dry as y'like, "jus' lookin' is what people do to us a lot of the time, can yer believe it?"

Decide I should prob'ly say somethin' before Faith starts a proper row with a stranger.

"We can do you a readin', miss," I says. "Y'can either come to our caravan t'night, or else we can read 'ere. Got a set o'cards with us, though it ain't all that private 'ere." Caf's pretty quiet though, so she might go fer it. Would pay fer our lunch, anyway.