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How did I get here?
Wow, LiveJournal is so different.
I find myself here with a lot of feels and nowhere else to put them.
I'm lonely but mostly okay with that.
But talking about my Dad tonight and my old job brings up a lot of emotion. Especially a day after I learned one of the cats I left with my ex-husband is sick and there is nothing I can do about it.
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Trapped
These four walls keep closing in on me and I feel trapped.
Your cold words keep singeing me and I feel wounded.
The chronic pain keeps me up at night and I feel hopeless.
How do I get out if this? When did this become my life? Stuck inside the same four walls, tied to someone who resents me while coping with immeasurable amounts of physical ( Read more... ) -
Possibilities
I've been struggling with disabling chronic migraines for years now. Sometimes I can't even get out of bed and showering exhausts me. My fiance, James always ends up picking up the day to day slack, after working full-time, even when things are good because neither one of us wants to "trigger an episode." I don't know how he stands me ( Read more... ) -
No words.
I can't seem to find the words to express just how much I miss you. I feel like I'm letting you down. You gave me so much, I wish I could have given you more. I should have given you more. I want to help your love feel better and I don't know how...
Damn it, you would know what to say to her. You always knew what to say.
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As I lay here trying to fall asleep I cant help but think... I am so lucky. I am lucky to have a wonderful Mom that would kill for me. Two intelligent and funny brothers that may tease me but always know what to do and have been hugely supportive of me. I have an incredible, smart, hilarious, kind boyfriend that loves me so much. I have such loyal ( Read more... ) -
Late at night...
... When the rest of the world is sleeping I cry. I cry because I miss people I love. I would have loved to talk to one of you today. Even for a second so that I could be reminded of what love feels like. So that I could hear from one of you that I'm doing a good job. So that I could know things will be ok.
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JGL
I saw the new Batman movie, The Dark Knight Rises on Saturday. Joseph Gordon-Levitt was awesome. The movie itself was awesome. I cried though, I cried because every part of me wanted, so badly, to call you when it was over to talk about it. I cried because you will never see it. I cried because I miss you, desperately.
I texted your wife. She said ( Read more... ) -
Too much time..
I spent too much time focused on bullshit. I should have been more focused on you.
I have so much regret that I wasn't nearly as good a friend to you as you were to me.
I wish I could make it up to you. I wish I could have saved you, like you saved me.
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Fathers Day
I don't even know what I want to say here ( Read more... ) -
I miss you
Sometimes I feel like you were the only friend who truly had faith in me. Our friendship never had an agenda and I wish I had one more chance to thank you for that.
I love you D
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