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I remember a friend, a year ahead of me, who casually remarked that one of his patients died. I was in my OPD year, and he was in clerkship year. Instead of feeling any sadness, he felt joy. He smiled at the thought of someone losing his life.

Less patients to monitor, less orders to carry out. He even proclaimed it to a few people. Back then, his ( Read more... )

With six hours left until the start of the second sem, I am still not ready to go back. But who is, anyway? A year and a half into med school makes me realize how incongruent my perceived time is to actual time elapsed, and how long I still have to go before I reach the end of my supervised medical training. Supervised, because you never really ( Read more... )

If the others pray and hope to be exempted from the pharma finals, I pray and hope to just pass.

Competition primes the true individual to come out of its facade. To observe it so soon is shocking, yet it prepares me for what is to come in the following years.

When a computer crashes, you first restart the computer to see if the hardware's still intact, or to see if it's a one-time thing, or if it doesn't completely wreck your operating system. You run different programs to see if there are any bad pieces of hardware. If you see one piece isn't working, you try to check if it's with the driver or the ( Read more... )

I am a lost soul in medical school.
In company, I find isolation.
In health, I find illness.
In knowledge, I find ignorance.

In time, I'll find reason.

...and tomorrow's the first exam of the year. Yet, here I am, of all possible moments, writing a journal entry about med school. Procrastination takes many forms.

Writing doesn't come by as often anymore, as my writing is fueled by emotional turmoil. Things are happy as of the moment, and I have no complaints. Except that maybe I'm too detached from ( Read more... )

One blog post said that the happiest you'll be during your medical career is between the time when you receive your acceptance letter and your first day in med school. So far, it's holding true. Half a sem into med school, I've done crazy things, and realized a few as well.

Feeling constricted, I tried to go out as much as I can to hold on to ( Read more... )

I've worked hard to be where I am right now, and now that I'm here, I find myself looking towards other directions. I need reasons to push me aside from the possible shame of failure ( Read more... )