Why do things feel so terrible? I feel absolutely fucking awful. Nothing has changed, nothing has improved and I know that this is my fault but I thought SOMETHING might have changed. Anything at all. But I'm still living in my mothers living room. I still dont have a job. I still cant sleep worth a shit, and I still can't see myself ever fucking ( Read more... )

I can't stop thinking about it. Usually I can imagine ahead of time how the choices that I make for my future will shape my chances, but not this time. This time, once again, my life is in someone elses hands. If they say yes or if they say no is what is going to be the final outcome. I look back on some of the mistakes I made while I was there, ( Read more... )