I need a hug. Not one that's just there. Not one just given out. A genuinely loving "I give two fucks" hug. I've made a lot of mistakes and messes, but I'm trying to get better. Why can't I shake this feeling no matter how hard I keep trying to change, I'll be stuck in perpetual adulescence (And no, I don't mean adolescence). I could really use a

This is life in purgatory. My name is Don and I've been here for twenty-seven years. I've forgotten all sense of pure bliss and jubulance. I've also forgotten pain and sorrow. Purgatory is much like it was back in the mortal realm. People coming and going, doing whatever it is that they all do. In a way, it mimics our old lives completely, but ( Read more... )

While it may not be, I find it strange how a song can change maintain the same lyrics, yet mean something entirely different within such short time ( Read more... )

Package of cookies, original Footloose, and a bottle of water. How did it ever get to this point?

It's been about two weeks now since I quit smoking, and I have to say my mood has changed drastically. Perhaps it's because I decided that I was doing too much at once, so I stopped eating as healthy (not to say I'm not eating healthy still, just enjoying the occasional bag of chips/grinder/etc). Fruits and balanced meals are still very much a part ( Read more... )

It seems the times I need help through depression the most and feel like ending my own life, wind up being the moments when the people I thought would want to help, don't. If I survive this week, it'll just mean I have to go through these emotions of hopelessness and loneliness all over again. Fuck it.

To be a man, every man must train a dog. To properly train a dog, you gain a loyal and loving companion. Mistrained, you have an animal, rabid, and unpredictable.

A reset button, that's all I ask for. Then again, here I am looking back when I should be looking at the now and forward.

If there's one thing that's been constantly reminded to me, it's that in my times of greatest need and feeling of abandonment, a helping hand is never offered, but a scoff instead. #notenoughcommas

For the first time in months I have fallen asleep without tossing and turning for hours and have, at last, obtained more than several hours of sleep without awakening. I still have this anxiety growing inside me. Perhaps change too quick is stressful on the psyche, but it'll be for the better (hopefully ( Read more... )