Some days are better then others.
I go weeks without thinking about him.
But sometimes I slip up.
And I think about him. 
And if he ever thinks about me.
Ever.
I know he doesn't.
Which just makes me hurt even more.

I thought I hated being alone. 
But I think I just hate not being with him.

Lighting class started this month.
It's torture.
It all just reminds me ( Read more... )

 really, I still miss him?
that is fucked up

I've come to the conclusion that i am uncapable of feeling anything anymore
thanks to him i dont want to be treated nicely 
I only want to be treated badly
lied to
abused 
and mislead

 I met a boy
he sings to me 
and play guitar
and makes me happy
the end.

 So I'm sitting here 
and I hadda take off my black rimmed glasses
and clean them
because my mascara is running all over them
and i cant see 
this could be one of the most emo moments of my life
hi I'm alone

 Ugh how do I get myself into these messes?

I met a boy
and he makes me smile
when I'm with him
and I'm really happy I met him
when I'm with him
He called me today around 6
said he hadda take care of a few things
and then we could hang out
it's 9:10
Homie dont play that game, suga
I got pretty much abused for 2 years 
I'm emotionless
So don't think that your cute mulitcolored eyes can make me melt
and be ( Read more... )

 I wanna go home :(

Someone at my school has the same exact car as him and I walk by it almost everyday
I usually have the extreme urge to key it
But I'm over it I guess
I met a boy
He is a friendly ghost

I am so lonely...