Comments | emmabovary: The waxing and waning of me

emmabovary

The waxing and waning of me

Apr 29, 2018 23:25

Phil sent me a text saying he needed to come out to Normandy to pick up his personal effects and we needed to arrange a time when I would not be here for this to take place ( Read more... )

end of love, phil, love

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msmidge April 29 2018, 21:34:00 UTC

You're very kind. I would be tempted to leave it all at the end of the driveway for him to pick up, and if it rains, it rains.

emmabovary April 29 2018, 21:44:05 UTC

Yeah, maybe. I think I'm having an emotional moment here. God I hope it passes quickly.

emmabovary April 29 2018, 21:44:33 UTC

and of course it IS raining, because it always rains in Normandy. :)

msmidge April 29 2018, 21:45:29 UTC

Maybe half-heartedly throw a tarp over it for plausible deniability.

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lookfar April 30 2018, 12:25:33 UTC

I think this sounds like a normal part of a progression. Sadly, it's not as if we consistently see people as they are. I find that my view of the people in my family changes all the time, like one of those teenager nightlights that go violet-blue-magenta-orange-red-violet. All I think I can do is to remember that it's happening.

Phil handled the breakup in a very bad way. D- grade. So of course you remembered that side of him most at first.

My dad died 7 years ago, and it took about 5 years before I started thinking positively about some of his traits.

emmabovary April 30 2018, 14:12:30 UTC

Yeah, this stuff is never a straight line upwards, right? I'm sure this won't be the last wave of sadness I'll feel. I'm actually glad I'm crying it out because I think the last time I cried was probably 1998.

It sounds like you had a complex relationship with your dad but I'm glad something warm slipped through and triggered a positive memory.