Gray

[emilylike]

 Some days, or weeks, or months, even in the middle of a sweltering summer, the whole earth feels gray. Waking up leads to running, leads to a shower and cereal and coffee, choosing clothes I am less sick of than others, getting ready for work, walking what seems like longer than yesterday to a desk in a windowless room where I sit for long hours

Comments

[simplissatee]

That was beautifully written. I am feeling so many of the same things lately. Thank you for the much-needed encouragement. :)

[emilylike]

thank you, melissa!

[thewayhome]

I think you said - better than I could - exactly how I feel. Exactly.

[emilylike]

dude, I hope it ends, eventually at least.

[sweetpea81]

Emily, I feel the grayness too. And more and more everyday it just seems to get darker and darker and the walls of this house feel like they are closing in on me. I spend my nights staying up too late, I then sleep all day because I have no job, no money, and no one to do anything with. When I am awake I'm on this stupid computer or out for a walk that lasts less than 30 minutes. I have no motivation to do anything, but an overwhelming need to get out!

Someday everything will work out the way it should, and we won't be those lonely old ladies. :)

[emilylike]

ha! I hope. I wish at least one part of life- maybe the job, or the relationship, or something could be smooth for a while. Good luck to you, too. thanks for responding.

[semiprosaic]

I think this is really well written - you succeed at capturing the feeling of gray and the struggle out of it.

Also, I have felt that way myself many times.

[laughthelight]

Patty Griffin "Stay on the Ride" on repeat might do you some good. There are times when I listen to it every day of my life.

In the meantime, keep writing. It can only help (and impress upon others--like me.)

[emilylike]

thanks! I know I'm super late at writing back to this.

I still haven't listened to that again. I think I will.