One day, I will be able to feel normal again.
Today is not that day.

i'm tired of being alone. and i'm tired of feeling empty. and i'm tired of crying every day. all the time. i feel so unbelievably worthless. i hate that i pull into my driveway i and i secretly hope his car will be here when i get home, but it never is. i hate that i still have his clothes. i hate that all i want to do is talk to him, to be in his ( Read more... )

i wish he wanted to live with me.
i wish i wasn't out of cigarettes.
wishing doesn't usually work.

i am a jealous person.

wow. i forgot about this.
i'm not in new york anymore. i'm not in a relationship anymore.
i'm back in alaska. i still deliver pizza.
things are very much the same.
i need out for a while.
i hate it.

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i don't have very long hair anymore. it's neat. i missed short hair. life is life. always changing. dealing with everyday situations. it's tough, but i am doing my best. i need to see more people. i need a better schedule. that's my problem, mainly. i need sleep, right now.

didn't really see it coming so soon.. but goodbye, weezer.
you were so good to me. we had a lot of good times.
i am so sad to see you go.
please come back some day.

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( there's a look in their faces tonight )