last night was one of the best nights i've had in a while. but today i have a really bad feeling. it's uneasy and anxious. and i'm sad all over again.

things have gotten so fucked up so fast. way too fast. it's all happening so fast. swimming is over. mom is getting sicker. jamie is a maniac. my friends don't get it. oh boo.
ps i love mr maxwell

she went to a cancer specialist and not only does she have it in her lungs, but her brain as well. They are taking care of it in her brain immediately, then she will have chemo for her lung cancer. The doctor said she will be alright by christmas. But it's going to be really hard until then. Hell, it's already really hard now. It shouldn't be, but ( Read more... )

everything is falling apart.

my mom has lung cancer.
she's so sad.
there is nothing any of us can do but be there for her.
i love her so much and this is the last thing she needs to happen to her.

i like alone time. a lot. and often times, people get mad at me when i don't want to do anything. when i'd rather just sit home and read a book or watch a movie or paint pictures by myself. i'm sorry, but i need the time to myself. i think it's because i'm a gemini. i'm two different people. and under my own circumstances, these two different ( Read more... )

it's all about perception. check yo'self girrrrrrl. seriously.

christmas was soooo good this year ( Read more... )

so much has happened, so much has changed.
i love the change, and i still wish it would stay the same.
it's both sides.
(now)

i want you to know that you're so far gone, you couldn't even come close to being who you were before, not that you would want to now, with your life being so wonderful. you think you owe this to yourself because of how bad things were before. but no one deserves this. no one. not even you ( Read more... )