I could have been a force for good. Equality. Justice. But I failed. I hate that I failed and never really had the chance. I went to law school for NOTHING. I'm helping NOONE. What a fucking waste. And I worked hard to matter, and I still failed. That's the real tragedy of my life.
As I get older, more burdened by health and money, I've come to realize I'm never going to see Greece. France. England. Japan. I'm so envious of those who get to. But we all come home to the same terrifying "democracy," right?
I really wish I could have seen Greece. That's not where she first came to prominence, but it's where she was beloved.
I wish everyone had read the Stormlight Archive. I'm like Taravangian when he's stupid, right now. All I have is compassion. Taravangian smart is all cold calculating, which I am during the day.
Forrest and my goal for 2024 was to get out more. I'm not doing a great job with my depression. The best I can do right now is lay in bed, and/or play FFXIV. That's still an improvement over my previous state
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I have to go to bed to make my husband happy. I would annilhate myself is I could. Thank you for the one person reading. I'll get better because I don't have a choice.