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[eliade]

Today isn't a good day. I don't feel present or alive in my body. Now that I've experienced a different state of mind for comparison, I'm aware of how absent and dead I've been for the last thirty years, as if what's walking around is just a poor sixth-generation copy of the cells I was born with. This kind of existence is worse than a state of

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[flaming_muse]

Meds can work wonders and bring people back to their full selves; I wish you the absolute best in finding the right ones for you.

You are doing lovely things for the people around you.

[trepkos]

I'm aware of how absent and dead I've been for the last thirty years,

This is astonishing, considering how very much present and alive the characters in your writing seem. Perhaps you have been living by proxy.

[kassrachel]

Strawberry milk and M&Ms. There's something so poignant about that.

I am so sorry you are seeing the world thru grey-colored glasses today. I've been like that a bit, of late, myself, though not with any understandable reason.

I'm so glad we've been able to help you be kind to your neighbors in the shelter. You rock. I hope tomorrow is a better day.

[tabaqui]

Isn't it wonderful and sort of terrible how truly tiny things bring so much joy?
I'm glad you get to bring that joy.
*still listening*

[raincitygirl]

One of my current roommates is a weathered woman, a self-identified crack whore with a raw voice, a disintegrating body, and the short-term memory of a gerbil. This morning when I brought her some strawberry milk and M&Ms she was so happy and said how baffling it was to get things without any expectation in return. "Usually I have to perform."

This is awesome. I'm sure these kindnesses mean a great deal to the recipients.