i'm never going to learn to be a mean person and treat people like alot of you treat me. it'd be nice if i could be treated accoring to my actions. and maybe have some respect for the nice things i do for my friends instead of taking advantage of how gracious and forgiving i am by hurting me constantly.

Dear Ken ( Read more... )

shaking finger tips rattle inside cracked skin. i hold my cigarette close to my plump glossed lips. inhale. hold, absorb. let go ( Read more... )

my chest is all stuffy, im getting sick. im so stressed. i just want someone to actually care about me. all my friends are preoccupied and i hear from none of them anymore. im working alot this week, i picked up shifts, it helps me focus on things other then how much i hate everything around me. i worked about 30 hours the last two days. scary. i ( Read more... )

i have to go to work all day and i feel really sick.
its like what i ate at prince als mixed with my lifes not going anywhere, im guessing the combination isnt good because it looks really unhealthy coming out. haha

i like the next day when you can look back at your actions the previous day before. im having a feeling i overreacted. but then i realized "oh yeah one of my best friends had a part in helping my heart get ripped out this time." so im guessing im not overreacting ( Read more... )

i got 99 problems but a bitch aint one ( Read more... )

i feel shitty when you make attempts to be a good friend and always feel like shit for even trying. i wish i was strong enough to say "fuck it and fuck you too"
but i'll just grin and bear it.

today has made me feel good. i woke up early, refreshed from the day before, i passed back through time and rewarded myself with memories that i hold so dear. i showered and went out with my dad and sister. the last few days with my dad have been wonderful. hes funny and i think im keeping a sane mind about him by always being there to remind him ( Read more... )

tomorrow i want to go to the show and there is no one to go with at this moment in time. so someone come with me ( Read more... )