Can't stay awake
Weakness and weariness beside me
Behind me
Around me
No way out
From this terrible feeling
The thought of living this way for as long as my body can last
It kills me
It consumes me
It engulfs me
It traps me
The people I love
So far
The people I hate
So close
The things I don't want
Here
The mornings when I can't wake up
The evenings when I can't ( Read more... )

I Need Serenity!!!

PULL THE FUCKING TRIGGER!!!!! SHOOT THE FUCKER ON THE WALL!!!!! SHOOT THE FUCKER ON THE WALL!!!!!!!!!!
SUICIDE!!!!! GENOCIDE!!!!!!!!!! THIS MAY BE FUCKING HELL!!!!! BUT IT'S A HELL I CAN FUCKING GRIP!!!!!!!!!!
PULL THE FUCKING TRIGGER!!!!!!!!!! PULL THE MOTHER FUCKING TRIGGER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Above the clouds I roam
When the Ones Below underestimate
I rage out and unleash my fury
I have no task
I show
I see to it that the Ones Below know what I am capable of doing
One way or the other
They will know
They will see
I will show...
My true rage
Who am I?...
I'm Lightning...

I'd sell
...my soul
...my self-esteem
...a dollar at a time
...for one chance
...one kiss
...one taste of you
...my Magdalena.

   Lightning strikes...earth shatters...people flee...people scream...wind blows...rain flows...clouds spread...matter...dead. Nothing left...nothing gained...everything gone...everything lost...nothing remains. Electric chairs fly...the innocent die...condemned to death. Waters rise...heavens fall...deamons rise...dead crawl. Ground tears...ground ( Read more... )

If I could absord everyone's pain...then I would, forever, feel the internal happiness that I long for. I really don't know if it's just me...but it hurts so much worse to see other people in anguish and agony that for myself to be in it. I hate not being able to help out...for my words bring no cure, but rather disturbance. Rather than this...what ( Read more... )

   Elliot(whether you read this or not)...even if you have "changed", you're still "Elliot"...and there is no further reason for you to try and save your(this or the) world...so don't bother waking up too soon(this line is figurative, so I hope you understand it). You and your partner(whoever the other person is) must live in peace...where the wild ( Read more... )

   Well...I think that my best friend moved away (for those who are my friends, I have many "best friends"). He was Blackendcast24...he was Raining Deth, I think. When I first found out that he had terminated his Xanga account...I began suspecting that he had moved away. Now, a few minutes ago, I noticed that Raining Deth terminated his account... ( Read more... )

Yesterday sucked so fucking much. I couldn't fucking go to the party(whoever's eyes are on this know which one). It wasn't that I couldn't go, it was that we didn't go. Since my grandma is staying with us, even though she wasn't meant to be, we couldn't go. She's not a part of that family,therefore, it set me back. Besides, I doubt my parents would ( Read more... )