mead composition notebook.

[eighteenth]

i only slept for a couple hours, and then got the urge to write. i've been reading parts of my life i've written over the past year and i break my heart with how i used to feel about myself:

"i feel like i'm some sort of disease. i don't want to be feared, i want to be held and lied to ... i want to live blindly."

Comments

[wastedonyou]

I never go back and read what's in my notebooks, it's just too depressing.

[eighteenth]

yeah, i started crying. mm come visit me at work bright and early on monday morning, i'll give you a discount. hehe

[wastedonyou]

i woke up 5 minutes before i was supposed to leave today!
i swear, once i get free time you are first on my list.

[smearedlipstix]

its good to read back.. it helps you to come to terms with who you once were, and move on from that..
you write beautifully and i think you capture things that a lot of people feel but could never confront.

[eighteenth]

i didn't really realize until last night/this morning how much i've moved on. and thank you, very much.

[heyimkelli]

its hard to look back into those dark periods in your life. i'm going through one right now, its very difficult, and hopefully when its all over with i'll look back and see the growth i've gone through.

ps. im glad you were up to join me in my insomnia last night!

[ssaall]

Well, I'd suggest that you don't delete this post, just make it private if you decide that you don't want anyone to read it. Because I mean, these types of posts are good to look back on.

I'm happy that you're more content with who you are. I've been through times where I never let anybody know, but I was just completely sad inside all the time, and the feeling of knowing that those times are behind you is really good and I'm glad that you are there.

[ink_runs_out]

i think i remember all those quotes. :\

[eighteenth]

nope. they're in my paper journal

[ink_runs_out]

oh just kidding