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[egyptqueen]

I refuse to put myself in the lower position anymore.

Alot of things have definitely changed since high school.  For better or for worse?  I don't know.

But I decided, today, that I can and will close that chapter of my life.  I'm not a high-schooler anymore.

Most people don't know this, but even though I'm 19 for a long time I still felt like I was

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[kisimbi]

Hey! I know I've kinda fallen away from the internet world, but I'm back! I miss you too!

About friendship- I lost a lot of friends when I went away to college. I guess that's about the time people you hang out with out of convenience stop being convenient. It's when you find which friends can withstand the test of time. I was really hurt when I found out that some of my close friends (people I hung out with every day in high school!) didn't invite me to go to the movies anymore. Even in the summer when they knew I was home.

Worse is that I'm starting to realize that the girl I called my best friend, Maureen, and I aren't really friends anymore. People are always concerned with what their friends think. I guess her new group didn't much approve of me.

I guess we just have to muddle through and hold on to the people we can. I miss my weird friends from the Honors College!

It was just so odd.

[egyptqueen]

I'll admit, I sort of lashed out without meaning to when I talked to her, but at the same time I put all my heart into (admittedly now) very blindly loving her as a friend. I didn't expect her to just sort of start...ignoring me, especially when I tried so hard to stay in touch with her. I don't think her friends disapprove of me (except maybe now for the drama that accidentally started), but what's funny is she told me I shouldn't have been so concerned. I just wished she'd given me a SIGN of her interest every once in a while. ><

I didn't expect so much friendly fallout.

But thanks for the support, Candice, and definitely find a way to keep in touch with you over the summer. <3