monday afternoon writing...

[egg_shell]

Monday - today is "vacuuming day" in my new life as a caregiver/housekeeper. I hate vacuuming. I have killed many vacuums in my time, the damnable stubborn things. Resisting me, pulling back, catching on door jabs and table legs, perversely sucking things they can't swallow, needing surgery done in the middle of a job, wasting my time with their

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[earthmother45]

I am so touched and uplifted by your writings about mom. And the picture is very comforting and soothing to my homesick heart.

[justapostcard]

thanks for that picture...

[artyem]

and in the end.
the love we make
is greater that the love
we take.

you are doing sainted work.

[earthmother45]

This corner of the room looks so different without dad's chair by the window. Laurie noticed right away it wasn't there, too. I'm sure there are many things changed and moved and gone in the house. I know it will be sad and I will have to brace myself. I'm glad you have been showing little previews so it won't be such a great shock. Just the fact that dad isn't there anymore....................

[egg_shell]

Dad's chair is still there - I just moved it to a different part of the room so I could get mom closer to the window so she could see the birds.

[anonymous]

I have no clue as to how I pulled this up 3 years after this post. I just opened up your journal and found this. Not sure if even my post will reach you at this level. I still want to respond as if I saw this today. Seems to me this must be a very early post in your care giving days. I said before I have no clue as how this pulled up, but again...it makes me feel very comforted to find this as I still feel like I am in my early stages of caregiving after my 2 plus years with Dad....somehow finding this post grounds me. I know that there is no way of knowing how long this caregiving will last. I just know it is one day at a time.

MnH

[egg_shell]

Maybe you clicked on the tag caregiver tag to get to this? Things have changed a lot over the years. Mom no longer sings and she looks miserable most the time now. She still has her bright moments where she knows us and that is nice but so rare now. I've given up weekly vacuuming too - I leave it for either Johnny or Chloe and they don't do it very often - the house looks terrible anymore - crowded with our stuff and mom's old stuff that I don't know what to do with. I never was much of a housekeeper ever. But as you say it is one day at a time and we are still doing it, one day at a time...