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checking in
I'm still here. Are you too? :)
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Has it really been two years since my last entry? Time keeps flying, and so much has happened between here and there. I'm here, and and at least reading for now, and hope to write more in the future. <3
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conferencing
Hi all--once again, I stopped writing here for a while, but lately I've been feeling like it would be good to try and get some thoughts down again. I hope some of you all are here and look forward to catching up with your posts ( Read more... ) -
pencils up
What prompts someone, after a year, to wake up and say "time to write here again ( Read more... ) -
passing away
They brought her back from the TEE, and for the first time, looking at her, I feel unambiguous about her state. Her mouth is open, she is sleeping heavily and breathing hard, with an occasional gasp or rattle. So gray, almost yellow, frail and hunched under her sheet. My heart is full of tenderness, of sadness, of a desire for her not to suffer ( Read more... ) -
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This journey has been such a mix of the sacred and the mundane. Being a librarian, I keep reading books about caregiving, hopsice, the medical profession...trying to understand the shape of what is happening to all of us, but especially my mother. Many things have resonated with me in these books, but one that has not is the idea of deathbed ( Read more... ) -
mom
She sleeps all the time now. My sister and I sit in the hospital on plastic, soft-backed recliners and surf Facebook. We observe for any movement, any eye flutter, and then jump up when it happens. We fuss. Can we get her water, fluff her pillows, lift her legs, call the nurse? She gets annoyed with us a little. When we were at Forbes, in the ( Read more... ) -
exclusion in the workout world (Warning: exercise talk if that's triggering)
I'm reading this book right now by Julia Serano for book group called "Excluded: Making Feminist and Queer Movements More Inclusive." I find myself reacting strongly to it at points, which is usually a sign that there's good stuff there (even if it's hard), but this post isn't really about that, though I think I might write one later about it ( Read more... ) -
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**opens door, blows dust off the table, peers around**
anybody still around this place?