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Why did I do laundry on September 15th?
I have plenty of trauma I’m still processing around Coyote leaving me, the horrible/wonderful Summer that followed, and my rather stagnant life since. One steady trigger is laundry. I hate it, I always avoid it, I wish I had an income so I could just pay someone to do it for me. I wait until the last day, or really, several days past the last ( Read more... ) -
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It’s so obvious that this dream was precipitated by my feelings of worthlessness about not making much money, coupled with my anxieties about not having a place to stay for a big chunk of my upcoming trip to the Northeast. I had a new job, one I’d gotten recently and was telling someone that I basically walked up and was hired on the spot. It was ( Read more... ) -
Recent Dreaming
I just woke from a rather unusual dream, for me. I traveled to Hawai’i with my parents and three (3!) cats. What was super strange is that the dream started on the flight, and then continued into my first jet lagged night! A dream where the destination was reached, astounding.
I didn’t see Ramsay or Socks within those cats, there was a maybe 6 ( Read more... ) -
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I don’t remember the process of creation being this hard. But here I am again, the night before a self-imposed deadline which will absolutely be forgiven if I fail to make, and I’m in just as much agony as I was before each deadline of the Anatomy for Artists classes that I finished taking in December. I drew a sketch and started to cut it into a ( Read more... ) -
Vroom Vroom
Whenever I start thinking that the Bay Area is just a city like any other, I must remember I have a friend who had a car with the pronouns vroom/vroom or something like that, and they were being perfectly serious. I’m glad that friend never took me for a drive, I’d spend the entire time sure I’m always on the verge of misgendering the car.
Ahem.
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New Ponies and Old Friends
I just woke up from a lovely pair of dreams. In the first, I was cuddled up with Coyote and watching something with Ethan, who was commenting cheerily about the show. “I hope I can still stay friends with your Mum, she’s amazing,” I said to Coyote, which makes the whole scene make no sense of course.
I stood up and there was a huge stack of ( Read more... ) -
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I’m back from my Northeast adventure, I’ve been back for a week actually. Definitely not as depressed as I was at one week post-Disney World, but I’m likely to write up that travel before the rollercoaster that was my first trip back to Trigger City.
I just dreamed that I was really making strides in my social life here in the Bay Area. I was ( Read more... ) -
My First Dusk as a Providence Tourist
Yes, these are the correct members of the bird symphony. This is the right tap water. The robin I saw just before I sat down is a robin, and today was a stream of sparrows, catbirds, chickadees, tufted titmice, birds I know from sight because of a book on birds I used to study with the fervor other children must have studied the Bible, Torah, ( Read more... ) -
Bored on an Airplane
I’m pretty damn excited as I sit here on the plane- “Shipping Up to Boston” a friend who’s well-versed in Irish music would say, so it’s in my head, even though I’ve never heard the song. Culture is funny like that. The tail of the plane is still touching the LAX dot, and it will be many hours until we land in Logan. The young men sitting next to ( Read more... ) -
I DID IT!
I have housing! It could use a bit of tweaking, one more friend who could host me for like, May 19-20 would be nice, but shit. I did so much panicking. I still feel anxious, and like, I dunno. Nosing around for the next thing to freak out about so I can make sure to arrive empty-handed everywhere?
Yes, what am I going to do about host presents ( Read more... )