haven´t been on for ages,,,i guess because i had a lot going on ( Read more... )

Wo I haven´t been on Lj, for weeks :( Been really busy lately.
In August I will finally have holidays, so I can go and enjoy life, I hope.................

its so hot...i´ve put on my size zero dress and red lipstick.....lets see what it does to my attitude:P

I have been really restrictive these days and I still feel huge, whale huge, disgustingly huge, ridiculously huge, fat, fat, fat, fat fat fat fat fat.........
please someone help me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

we have relatives around today...that means a really overwhelming dinner I have to be at......:( I feel really really anxious of eating to much, or even eating at all :( :( theres no way I can get out of it......maybe I´ll just have the salad.........:(:(:(

oh gooood I feel the urge to purge so badly, what should I do............help help help

Symptom Recital ( Read more... )

So today is monday, and Im quite anxious to see my therapist today. I haven´t been making any progress really. She certainly won´t love the idea of the size zero dress for prom ( Read more... )

I bought myself a size zero dress....and it fits....

yeeeeeah.

How did I do this? Don´t know, all I know it wasn´t "healthy".........

my therapist won´t like that............

we wanted to go to see ballet on saturday, why the heck does he invite me to dinner.
what shall I do????

I have unbelievable cravings for salt.

Can somebody tell me what that means?????