In case you haven't heard-and this basically defeats the entire purpose, but-my new lj name is ( Read more... )

Thankyou, Farah, thankyou Juliana.
You do what you can, isn't. that. right.

I have had enough of this bullcrap.
I'm making a new lj, and if you're cool, you'll hear about it.
If not, whatever---don't take it too personally.

I miss real, genuine happiness. I'm not saying that I'm cliche, emo, or upset, or unhappy. I just miss the feeling that I could stand up straight without someone giving me permission, that yes, it's alright to stand.

God, I hate to sound like this.

My mother told me that she can't trust me. Because she doesn't know if I'm really going to see ( Read more... )

Today I applied for my first community, where you had to tell a lot of stuff, and people can reject/accept you. I don't think I've ever been this nervous :D --well, when I went to the talent show, I was nervous and then I fell over, haha, practically on top. And when I handed in my job apps ( Read more... )

I feel like in ten years, all the people I truly care about will hate me. I don't know why, it's a paranoia thing. I told Jen about it the other day--Thanks, love ( Read more... )

My parents are out for a couple of hours.
I'm not going to Jen's, because they're being annoying, even though GRAND ISLAND IS NOT THAT FUCKING FAR WHEN THEY DRIVE MORE TO GET TO CANADA.
That's poop, utterly and completely.
I CANNOT FRICKIN' WAIT FOR MY LICENSE.

We saw Wolfgang last night. It's from like, 86 or something? My mom said, "After we ( Read more... )

So, you two are speaking again? I hate it when something shifts my life map, and then, it's just like everything I've known changes into something I've NEVER known? God, this sounds so directed, so rude--and I don't mean it like that. It's just been bothering me, festering for a while. God, maybe I'll change that word-festering is just too scabby ( Read more... )

Task: Condense your whole life experience, your hopes, dreams, emotions, desires, fears, anxieties, memories, secrets, shames and obsessions into twenty five words or less.

I'd love to see how you do.

Lexie, I saw you after LITERALLY FOREVER . And, I saw some old East people--working, but regardless. That's nice, you know? Just to see how people change and evolve ( Read more... )