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Mar 01, 2010 08:49

Urgh, that was not a good weekend. Poor Man was very ill, which obviously was sucky for him but also for me. And reaffirmed my worthlessness. He keeps saying, 'you make me happy by yourself, I love you' and 'I don't think of you in terms of usefulness, it would be bad if I did' but I see no evidence of it. He made me listen to it in the car and ( Read more... )

anorexia, love & sex, bad temper & sad temper

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angelic_brat March 1 2010, 13:52:37 UTC

Honey bee, two things. First, are you not eating, or are you just not eating on purpose? In full knowledge that you used to/still have an eating disorder, perhaps you should be more alert about things. Alex things you are gorgeous, all your friends think you are gorgeous... Hard to convince the brain I know but I'm sure you can be partially convinced ( ... )

eatmywords09 March 1 2010, 19:24:39 UTC

Honestly, if I had more will power, I would have seriously cut down. But for instance, this week I'm giving up cake till the weekend when I'm taking Alex to my FAV cake-coffee place (Pompidou, you know it?) but to make up for that gaping hole in my life, I bought a tub of Nutella today. So...I really wouldn't worry. My mentality towards food will always be fucked but hey, I think my adult brain just imagines teenage brain when it was really ill and goes, "NO AILSA BAD AILSA" lol ( ... )

angelic_brat March 2 2010, 00:07:08 UTC

No I don't know Pompidou. Where's that? If you like cupcakes, you should try Ella's Bakehouse in Covent Garden market.... Edible glitter!!! MMmm Nutella. I looooove Nutella. Lol I like how your adult brain says that.

Yeah, I'd probably succumb to the temptation if he's so close, but I guess start really slowly. Look at what an extra day did. Imagine two or three. Haha. I am barely good about it. I just believe he's worth it. And with that belief the two of you will be ok. He won't ever discover that he can't live without you. That's what happens when they love you like that.

Two weeks and 4 days though. Still. So desperate for the 19th to just come!!

Awwwwwww. Yes, he always says amazingly perfect things (from what you post). Am a little jealous sometimes, but I suppose actors are better than directors at expressing themselves, huh? : P

eatmywords09 March 1 2010, 19:25:11 UTC

and bless you, sweetheart, for such a lovely reply.