Nervous happy fear-dassie

[eatmywords09]

I have forbidden myself from writing too much about RADA. But discovered, to my horror, that 100 people make it to the final round (out of a total of 3000 applicants overall) At a stretch, I could possibly be a 1 in 20 actress. I am not a 1 in a 100 actress. But I have never felt so mercenary about anything. It hurts. God it aches, it tears me

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[angelic_brat]

OOooo my god banoffee pie.. One of the best things eveeerrrr..

It sounds like RADA auditions were fun, which I guess helped with the nerves.. Eeeks, you must be so nervous. Just remember though, at the end of the day, there's a reason for everything. But I send you a lot of prayers for your dreams to come true!!

You're name is like right at the top of the cast list. If it were me I'd be crazy.

Haha awww camera shy.

So I guess a Dassie is unlikely to wake up very much?

[eatmywords09]

it really was great. smothered in cream.
yeah, it was a good day. but you're so aware of being observed all the time- people literally sat round the room with clipboards watching you pretend to be a frog; it's a little unsettling. thank you- I need all the prayers and luck I can get!!
ahaha I noticed that too. but it's actually better since due to some technical error on the site the rest of the cast list under the Read More link can't be seen at all! So I've actually come off quite well!
Haha, we're as bad as each other. after this, he managed to catch me on his phone. arg.
haha, well, I can only find pics on google of them awake and none asleep so I'm sure it's just a case of bad press.

[angelic_brat]

i bet that must be daunting.. but they assess you in acting class that way so that's a pretty decent audition process. sending even much more luck and prayers!! (I felt awful when I didn't get into Cambridge, so I really hope you don't ever feel the same way)

oooh i sneak a lot of man-sleeping photos haha. he hates it but they're some of my favourite to look at. ooh my gosh which reminds me i have one of him falling asleep with the kitten... must go look for it!!

[eatmywords09]

I hate the waiting game of these schools. I hate flinching every time the phone rings!
lol thanks for the idea! I hate him taking my pic and he hates me taking his but I'm determined not to wait till Macbeth. ahaha snap! my man's looking after 3 kittens at the moment. clearly a photo-op.

[eatmywords09]

really is. driving me up the wall too.

[darkbob]

Best of luck to you Ailsa! In case you don't make it, know that you have the talents and everything that makes you an amazingly qualified candidate, they're just...urr...out of room. lol I told myself things like that when I was waiting for my university applications acceptance/rejection letters (from Columbia University.)

Your boy is so so cute :) Dassie is a funny nickname haha surely you are not that big of a night owl?

[eatmywords09]

thank you. it will be a black week when I don't get in. just WANT IT SO MUCH. more than anythign ever, as I said in the post.
aha, I know I'm biased but I think he's a bit lovely. lol, actually we both assure one another we don't normally lounge round in bed all day, it's just when I'm round his house I love staying in bed with him. so I must seem rather drowsy furry animal. My other nickname is Bundle because of how I lie in bed. ahaha, he has yet to earn a nickname; it's cause I think he's too dignified for a nickname but I think he'd secretly like one, lol!
Do you and your man have pet names by any chance?

[darkbob]

Just Natty and Joelly lol. If you've seen Wall-E, sometimes I call him that and he calls me Evvvv-aaaa because of how they resemble PC and Mac, respectively, and our preference for opposite platforms (I know, we're huge geeks)!

[angelic_brat]

aww man Wall-E was too cute.

[happy_and_lost]

Best of luck, not that you need it :)

[eatmywords09]

thanks, sugar.