Nervous happy fear-dassie
I have forbidden myself from writing too much about RADA. But discovered, to my horror, that 100 people make it to the final round (out of a total of 3000 applicants overall) At a stretch, I could possibly be a 1 in 20 actress. I am not a 1 in a 100 actress. But I have never felt so mercenary about anything. It hurts. God it aches, it tears me apart this utter wanting. I just know something dreadful is going to happen when I don't get in. The day itself was stressful but, I mean, huge experience. Voice classes, movement classes, then work on audition speech and I was happy with how the speech itself went, but then I veer between thinking, "Yeah, that bit went well" and remembering, "Oh God, but I ballsed that bit up". I don't know. They were all such nice people, you want them all to get in, but like I say, I've never ever in my life felt that if it's a case of You and Me, it's going to be me. But I do about RADA. Never mind how nice you are, I want it more. Which is awful. I don't want to be this person. But again, I want RADA more.
Aaaaanyway, so, that was a long day. I stayed with my friend Reg and we caught up over a lovely dinner (Banoffee Pie, yes indeed). I spent forever editing the play The Trial of God, which my audition speech was from because I really genuinely do want to put it on at some time in my life. It's a great play, really harrowing but witty and inspiring too.
Sunday was lovely. Went to see In the Loop with Alex, the film spin-off from the series The Thick of It, which Alex introduced me to. Hilarious but I wanted the good guys to get the happy ending. Of course not. It's politics, unfortunately. Nothing turns out the way it should. Bumped into Sue and husband there and so had a drink with them afterwards before heading off with the man for dinner. He's such unfailingly good company. I mean, I can be such a hermit but I genuinely love spending time with him, talking to him.
Even back home, we carried on chatting for ages. And again, continues to amaze me how incredible bed etc is. Mind-blowingly good. I got to keep him today until 1 before he had to go to the Job Centre and be told off for not having a job, haha, which must be quite something. I have a Witch Meeting tonight, which was lots of fun last time and I'm dreading far less now. I think we're going to do a bit of proper reading today. Alex was also writing some of the Macbeth blog today! So I highly recommend you check that out, and keep tabs on how it's all going: http://web.me.com/normanken/The_Actors_Company/Welcome.html (Yes, that's my man in the blue, very exciting) Haha, writing the blog he said he thought he'd leave out my nerve-induced throwing up. There will be a video interview with him soon answering questions about the production, which I think will be fascinating.
So check out MACBETH BLOG!
(A dassie is a creature that lives on top of Table Mountain and only wakes up when the sun hits the bottom of its feet- needless to say after I told Alex this he promptly made it my nickname. I am Dassie.)
Finally got a photo after much coercion.
Aaaaanyway, so, that was a long day. I stayed with my friend Reg and we caught up over a lovely dinner (Banoffee Pie, yes indeed). I spent forever editing the play The Trial of God, which my audition speech was from because I really genuinely do want to put it on at some time in my life. It's a great play, really harrowing but witty and inspiring too.
Sunday was lovely. Went to see In the Loop with Alex, the film spin-off from the series The Thick of It, which Alex introduced me to. Hilarious but I wanted the good guys to get the happy ending. Of course not. It's politics, unfortunately. Nothing turns out the way it should. Bumped into Sue and husband there and so had a drink with them afterwards before heading off with the man for dinner. He's such unfailingly good company. I mean, I can be such a hermit but I genuinely love spending time with him, talking to him.
Even back home, we carried on chatting for ages. And again, continues to amaze me how incredible bed etc is. Mind-blowingly good. I got to keep him today until 1 before he had to go to the Job Centre and be told off for not having a job, haha, which must be quite something. I have a Witch Meeting tonight, which was lots of fun last time and I'm dreading far less now. I think we're going to do a bit of proper reading today. Alex was also writing some of the Macbeth blog today! So I highly recommend you check that out, and keep tabs on how it's all going: http://web.me.com/normanken/The_Actors_Company/Welcome.html (Yes, that's my man in the blue, very exciting) Haha, writing the blog he said he thought he'd leave out my nerve-induced throwing up. There will be a video interview with him soon answering questions about the production, which I think will be fascinating.
So check out MACBETH BLOG!
(A dassie is a creature that lives on top of Table Mountain and only wakes up when the sun hits the bottom of its feet- needless to say after I told Alex this he promptly made it my nickname. I am Dassie.)
Finally got a photo after much coercion.