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Mar 26, 2010 13:39

Tell me everything and anything you need to let out.

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anonymous March 26 2010, 18:39:12 UTC

Enough with the chewing and spitting. Ohhhh how I want to be able to stop.

anonymous March 26 2010, 20:20:50 UTC

I know "control" is an illusion, but I cannot resist submitting to the desire both to control everything and to completely lose control.

anonymous March 26 2010, 23:12:49 UTC

I'm fat. I'm ugly. I'm evil. I'm stupid. I'm unkind. I'm selfish. I'm rotten. I'm dirty. I'm fat. I'm lazy. I'm definitely too much. Of anything. I should die. But I can't, because in a way that would be selfish too. I'm fat. I'm really really fat. I'm trying so hard to function properly; to not lose too much weight, to not be too hungover, to not have too many cuts so i can do a good job at my internship and not have too many people worry about me. I try so hard, but I'm still the biggest failure alive ( ... )

anonymous March 27 2010, 01:29:36 UTC

I think I am encouraging my bestfriend to develop an eatting disorder. He is HUGE and I want him to look skinny but I don't know how not to let my own habits turn into his.

anonymous March 29 2010, 05:58:26 UTC

maybe he already has one? (COE/BED)

anonymous March 27 2010, 08:02:57 UTC

I don't think I want to get better- I regret ever going to treatment and I just want to loose all the weight again, but worry that I will kill myself before I get there, because of how utterly disgusting I feel at this 'normal' size! I did IP to please everyone else, but now I just want all my OP team to leave me alone and let me do what I want