It is time to retire this journal.
I'm moving on.

If I left right now, I would get to my stupid job on time. as it is, I'm not dressed and I'm here writeing this ( Read more... )

monday and tuesday I was freaking out about money and the future. Like how was I going to afford to pay off a future student dept. I can't take care of myself now and it's hard to imagine how in the future I can handle a dept burrden so much larger then one I have now. I can't tell you how this affects myselfesteem everyday, not being able to pay ( Read more... )

this is an act of procrastination. I'm painting today, this is my brake. I take too many brakes. drink tea and brake over. But tea has to cool, it's too hot, must wait till tea cools then drink, then paint. Good plan ( Read more... )

I really didn't want to volinteer today, I just wanted the free time to myself. But I made the commitment so I dragged my ass there. It was much better today then the first time. I still see some problems, but over all it did run much more smoothly. I got to do some of my own intervention stly, which is in some cases going to make me hated. But ( Read more... )

I'm tired of saying how tired I am. I'm not all the time, just when I have time to myself these recent weeks, like time to update the journal ( Read more... )

There is so much I have been wanting to write about, but I"m too tired.
Now for some sillyness

I wish I had a kitty
To put inside my heart
Then I would know
That someone loves me
From the inside out.

Question in your opinion what are the reasons to love someone or to be Loved?
I'll leave what you feel the difintion of love is up to you.

remind me when I wake up to write about Nuit Blanche. Been up all night, just got back from the swimming pool, they turn down the tempure of the water to make it more like a roman bath so I'm fucken freezing right now, weak and dizy. Floating on your back with the silver foil on the ceiling and the ambeiant music and the disco ball it was erm can't ( Read more... )

So last night I had a ton of fun with P. We ate pizza drank whine and took pictures. Not your normal kind of pictures (or pizza it was vegan) but rather the naked wearing a animal mask kind for the sake of an atempt at art kind. All in good tast of corse ( Read more... )

This new york thing is starting to really get out of hand. Orginally I first though i would only do one night, just to see the concert, but you know since I was going to be there anyway I thought I really should go gallery hoping and if I'm doing that then I really should goes to some of the art musums and well wouldn't it be fun to check out the ( Read more... )