Love, Life & Loss. Chapter 51.
Title: Love, Life & Loss.
Author: Pure_Ecstasy6
Pairing: Andy/Miranda.
Rating: 17+ Language.
Summary: Andy is a cop in NYC and falls in love with the queen of fashion.
Disclaimer: Characters aren't mine.
Authors Note: There's only two more chapters to go!
Beta: worst_liar_ever Thank you so much for being a brilliant Beta reader. It means a lot to me =)
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Miranda found Andy sitting in the den as she flipped through a magazine that had been left on the coffee table. She sat down next to her and the brunette remained silent.
"We've got to talk about this." Miranda said.
Andy sighed. "Talk about what?" She stood from the couch and let the magazine fall back onto the table. "There's nothing to talk about. I'm not having it!" she said and began walking towards the door.
Miranda stood quickly from the couch and managed to grab Andrea's arm before she left the room. "Andrea, darling-" she stopped when Andrea turned to look at her. "Stop." Andy said. Her voice hard. She continued out the door without another word.
Miranda was once again left to stare at the empty space in front of her. She didn't bother chasing after Andrea this time. As much as Miranda wanted to talk to Andrea about the pregnancy, she knew she needed to give her young wife space.
With these thoughts she left the room and went downstairs where she found The Book waiting for her on the hall table and she took it into the sitting room, sat in her armchair and got to work.
Two Hours Later.
Miranda finally was making her way upstairs for bed. The Book had taken longer than usual with many errors that she had to go over. She quietly entered the room and saw that Andrea was in bed. Her eyes were closed but she wasn't sure if her love was asleep.
Once she washed her makeup off Miranda climbed into bed. She felt Andrea put an arm around her and Miranda smiled. She turned around so she was facing her love but Andrea still had her eyes closed. She leaned forward and placed a kiss on Andrea's cheek. It bought a tiny smile to the brunette's face.
Miranda traced random patterns on Andrea's bare arm as she studied her lovers face. "Don't you think it'd be good. Having a little boy or girl running around the place?" she asked as she absentmindedly placed her hand on Andrea's lower stomach. She hadn't wanted more children after the twins but when she found out only a few hours ago that Andrea was pregnant she found herself liking the idea of having another family member.
"No, it'd just make things worse." Andy replied before she turned around leaving Miranda to stare at the back of her.
Miranda frowned before she put an arm around Andrea and held her close. She wouldn't push Andrea to make any sort of decision, she was just going to be there for her and hope that she made the right choice, one that Andrea knew was best.
~*~
The next morning when Miranda made her way down the hall towards the kitchen she stopped when she heard her wifes voice coming from inside the lounge. "Thank you, I'll be seeing you tomorrow then." Miranda entered the room just as Andy was putting her cell onto the coffee table.
"Who was that?" Miranda asked as she stood near the table.
"Planned Parenthood. I made an appointment for tomorrow." Andy replied before picking up the tv remote and flicking around channels as if what she had just said had been no big deal.
Miranda managed to get over her initial shock before she looked down at her lover who seemed to be looking anywhere but her. "Don't you think that is a hasty decision? You should at least wait a few more days before you decide."
"I can't wait any longer, Miranda!" Andy snapped as she whipped her head up to look at the older woman. "I don't want this! Why won't you understand that?"
Miranda shook her head. "I don't want you to make the wrong decision." she moved over to the couch and sat down. She picked up Andrea's hand and squeezed it. "I don't want you to regret doing this." she sighed. "You would make a great mother Andrea."
Andy forced a laugh. "Me? A mother. I can't picture it and don't want to picture it because I can't do this." she said loudly as she stood from the couch. "So just drop it!" she left the room.
Miranda sighed before she caught up to Andrea. She grabbed her by both hands and turned her around so she could look Andrea in the eyes. "Would you look at me please so I can talk to you?" she asked softly when Andrea wouldn't look at her.
Andy sighed before raising her eyes to meet Miranda's. "I'm sorry. I told myself I wouldn't push you into anything. But, if you don't want this then I'm just going to have to support your decision, even if I may not like it." the brunette nodded at Miranda's voice. "What time is your appointment tomorrow afternoon? I want to be there for you."
"You don't have to do that." Andy replied.
"I know but like I said I want to." Miranda replied.
"3:15." Andy replied before she headed towards the staircase.
~*~
Alex entered the townhouse and found Andy in the sitting room near the kitchen. "Hey, what's wrong? You phone call seemed like it was urgent."
Andy looked up at Alex. "You might want to sit down."
Alex nodded. "Alright." she sat and looked at Andy expectantly.
"You know how I've been being sick these past few mornings and you hinted to me earlier at what it might be well yeah it's what you thought." Andy said.
Alex's jaw dropped. "Your-"
"Pregnant. Yup." Andy cut her off.
Alex took a moment to wrap her head around it. "Wow."
"Yeah." Andy said.
"Are you going to go through with it?" Alex asked.
"Seriously Alex? I thought you knew me better than that to have to ask." Andy replied. She put her legs out on the couch and laid back. "You know that I've never wanted to be pregnant and just 'cause I am it doesn't mean I'm going to go through with it."
"Okay, you don't have to get all bitchy with me." Alex replied.
Andy sighed and turned to look at Alex. "Sorry."
Alex waved a hand. "Whatever. Whens your appointment then to, you know,"
"Tomorrow." Andy replied.
"You want me to come or something?" Alex asked.
Andy shook her head. "No, it's fine."
"You sure?" Alex asked.
"I said it's fine!" Andy snapped.
"Alright!" Alex said and stood from the couch. "I'll take that as my que to leave." she said before she exited the room.
"Fuck!" Andy growled to the silent room and threw a cushion from the couch across the room in slight anger. She knew she shouldn't have snapped at Alex but she was just pissed off with everything that seemed to be happening lately.
~*~
Late That Afternoon.
"Darling, Irv has pulled an unexpected board meeting for tonight that I need to attend. Are you going to be alright?" Miranda said as she hurried into the kitchen, clasping a bracelet around her wrist as she stood next to Andy.
Andy nodded. "Yes, go, I'm not a child."
Miranda leaned forward and kissed Andrea's cheek, ignoring the annoyed words of her lover. "I'll be home as soon as I can be. I love you." she said.
"Love you too." Andy replied before turning back to her newspaper she was reading and listening as Miranda's heels clacked down the hall way before exiting the townhouse. She sighed and was glad that she was going to have some time to herself.
9:35PM.
Andy had been home alone for a few hours now and the lonliness was starting to get to her. From where she was sitting in the kitchen at the table she heard the front door open and closed. She listened for the clacking of Miranda's heels but frowned when she didn't hear them. She stood and walked to the door and saw Alex nearing her. She moved back over to the counter just as Alex entered the room.
Alex walked over to stand next to Andy.
They were silent for a couple of seconds until Andy turned on the coffee machine. "Did you want a drink?" she asked. She looked at Alex who nodded her head. Needing mugs she leaned forward in front of Alex and grabbed two from the sink where they had been drying.
Andy's shirt lifted from the movement and Alex couldn't help but see the skin that had been revealed and she saw an edge of a scar. She touched the skin softly with her hand and Andy flinched and stepped away.
"What are you doing?" Andy asked, staring at her.
"You haven't shown me what they did to you." Alex replied,"And well I couldn't help but seeing what I saw just then."
Andy walked over to the window and looked out. She closed her eyes. She couldn't let Alex see what they did to her. It was bad enough when Miranda saw. "I can't, Alex."
Alex walked over to Andy and stood behind her. "Let me."
Andy sighed, knowing that Alex wouldn't let up, lifted the back of her tee shirt. She felt Alex's hands touching her back.
"If I were to find them I'd kill them for hurting you like this." Alex said.
Andy didn't exactly hear her though as flashes of the day they scarred her back flashed behind her closed eyes. Tears began welling up in her eyes and her body began shaking.
Alex noticed and turned Andy around and pulled the brunette into her arms and just held her as Andy sobbed her pain. Her eyes closing and tears trailing silently down her own cheeks.
Andy pulled away and they stared into one anothers eyes. Before they knew what was happening Alex had moved forward and their lips met in a soft and slightly hesitant kiss.
Alex pulled away a couple seconds later and they stared silently at one another. "Don't you dare fucking scare me like that again, you got that?" Alex said firmly, both knowing she was referencing to Andy's being taken, before she turned around and left the room leaving Andy to process what had just happened.
It wasn't long after Alex left that Miranda arrived home and she found Andy in the same posistion in the kitchen. "Is everything alright darling?" Miranda asked, pulling Andy from her thoughts.
"Um," Andy looked up at Miranda. Her heart pounded in her chest. She had no idea if she should tell Miranda what happened or not. Deciding on the truth because she didn't want to keep anything from Miranda she nodded. "Um yeah, Alex and I, we um, kissed."
Miranda blinked a couple of times at what she'd just heard.
"It, it didn't mean anything, well not, I mean, I don't want to jump into bed with her or anything, she's my best friend, you have to know that I don't want to her in that way." Andy rambled on nervously. She didn't want Miranda to get angry or upset over this.
Miranda, unpredictable as ever, surprised Andy by laughing. "You're rambling and nervous when there's no need to be. So you both shared a kiss? I know you wouldn't go running off with her in that way, not because I know you say you'd never cheat on me, but because, well, it's Alexandra." she chuckled again. "The two of you are great friends but I don't think you both would suit being lovers."
Andy stared at Miranda. "So you aren't mad with me then?"
Miranda shook her head. "No, of course not." she replied. "But, if it were any other woman then yes, I would be fumeing." she added.
Andy smiled and moved closer to Miranda. "You always surprise me, Miranda."
Miranda smiled back at her. "I'm glad."
They kissed before Miranda took Andy's hand. "I'm absolutely exhausted after that meeting."
"I'll run you a bath before you sleep then." Andy replied as she walked with Miranda down the hall.
Miranda looked at Andy. "Thank you darling."
Miranda smiled. For tonight she was just going to enjoy being with Andrea in the moment and forget about what would be happening tomorrow and followed Andrea upstairs.
~*~
TBC...
Author: Pure_Ecstasy6
Pairing: Andy/Miranda.
Rating: 17+ Language.
Summary: Andy is a cop in NYC and falls in love with the queen of fashion.
Disclaimer: Characters aren't mine.
Authors Note: There's only two more chapters to go!
Beta: worst_liar_ever Thank you so much for being a brilliant Beta reader. It means a lot to me =)
Feedback: Comments are brilliant so please leave your thoughts.
Previous Chapter: community.livejournal.com/dvlwears_prada/1547892.html
~*~
Miranda found Andy sitting in the den as she flipped through a magazine that had been left on the coffee table. She sat down next to her and the brunette remained silent.
"We've got to talk about this." Miranda said.
Andy sighed. "Talk about what?" She stood from the couch and let the magazine fall back onto the table. "There's nothing to talk about. I'm not having it!" she said and began walking towards the door.
Miranda stood quickly from the couch and managed to grab Andrea's arm before she left the room. "Andrea, darling-" she stopped when Andrea turned to look at her. "Stop." Andy said. Her voice hard. She continued out the door without another word.
Miranda was once again left to stare at the empty space in front of her. She didn't bother chasing after Andrea this time. As much as Miranda wanted to talk to Andrea about the pregnancy, she knew she needed to give her young wife space.
With these thoughts she left the room and went downstairs where she found The Book waiting for her on the hall table and she took it into the sitting room, sat in her armchair and got to work.
Two Hours Later.
Miranda finally was making her way upstairs for bed. The Book had taken longer than usual with many errors that she had to go over. She quietly entered the room and saw that Andrea was in bed. Her eyes were closed but she wasn't sure if her love was asleep.
Once she washed her makeup off Miranda climbed into bed. She felt Andrea put an arm around her and Miranda smiled. She turned around so she was facing her love but Andrea still had her eyes closed. She leaned forward and placed a kiss on Andrea's cheek. It bought a tiny smile to the brunette's face.
Miranda traced random patterns on Andrea's bare arm as she studied her lovers face. "Don't you think it'd be good. Having a little boy or girl running around the place?" she asked as she absentmindedly placed her hand on Andrea's lower stomach. She hadn't wanted more children after the twins but when she found out only a few hours ago that Andrea was pregnant she found herself liking the idea of having another family member.
"No, it'd just make things worse." Andy replied before she turned around leaving Miranda to stare at the back of her.
Miranda frowned before she put an arm around Andrea and held her close. She wouldn't push Andrea to make any sort of decision, she was just going to be there for her and hope that she made the right choice, one that Andrea knew was best.
~*~
The next morning when Miranda made her way down the hall towards the kitchen she stopped when she heard her wifes voice coming from inside the lounge. "Thank you, I'll be seeing you tomorrow then." Miranda entered the room just as Andy was putting her cell onto the coffee table.
"Who was that?" Miranda asked as she stood near the table.
"Planned Parenthood. I made an appointment for tomorrow." Andy replied before picking up the tv remote and flicking around channels as if what she had just said had been no big deal.
Miranda managed to get over her initial shock before she looked down at her lover who seemed to be looking anywhere but her. "Don't you think that is a hasty decision? You should at least wait a few more days before you decide."
"I can't wait any longer, Miranda!" Andy snapped as she whipped her head up to look at the older woman. "I don't want this! Why won't you understand that?"
Miranda shook her head. "I don't want you to make the wrong decision." she moved over to the couch and sat down. She picked up Andrea's hand and squeezed it. "I don't want you to regret doing this." she sighed. "You would make a great mother Andrea."
Andy forced a laugh. "Me? A mother. I can't picture it and don't want to picture it because I can't do this." she said loudly as she stood from the couch. "So just drop it!" she left the room.
Miranda sighed before she caught up to Andrea. She grabbed her by both hands and turned her around so she could look Andrea in the eyes. "Would you look at me please so I can talk to you?" she asked softly when Andrea wouldn't look at her.
Andy sighed before raising her eyes to meet Miranda's. "I'm sorry. I told myself I wouldn't push you into anything. But, if you don't want this then I'm just going to have to support your decision, even if I may not like it." the brunette nodded at Miranda's voice. "What time is your appointment tomorrow afternoon? I want to be there for you."
"You don't have to do that." Andy replied.
"I know but like I said I want to." Miranda replied.
"3:15." Andy replied before she headed towards the staircase.
~*~
Alex entered the townhouse and found Andy in the sitting room near the kitchen. "Hey, what's wrong? You phone call seemed like it was urgent."
Andy looked up at Alex. "You might want to sit down."
Alex nodded. "Alright." she sat and looked at Andy expectantly.
"You know how I've been being sick these past few mornings and you hinted to me earlier at what it might be well yeah it's what you thought." Andy said.
Alex's jaw dropped. "Your-"
"Pregnant. Yup." Andy cut her off.
Alex took a moment to wrap her head around it. "Wow."
"Yeah." Andy said.
"Are you going to go through with it?" Alex asked.
"Seriously Alex? I thought you knew me better than that to have to ask." Andy replied. She put her legs out on the couch and laid back. "You know that I've never wanted to be pregnant and just 'cause I am it doesn't mean I'm going to go through with it."
"Okay, you don't have to get all bitchy with me." Alex replied.
Andy sighed and turned to look at Alex. "Sorry."
Alex waved a hand. "Whatever. Whens your appointment then to, you know,"
"Tomorrow." Andy replied.
"You want me to come or something?" Alex asked.
Andy shook her head. "No, it's fine."
"You sure?" Alex asked.
"I said it's fine!" Andy snapped.
"Alright!" Alex said and stood from the couch. "I'll take that as my que to leave." she said before she exited the room.
"Fuck!" Andy growled to the silent room and threw a cushion from the couch across the room in slight anger. She knew she shouldn't have snapped at Alex but she was just pissed off with everything that seemed to be happening lately.
~*~
Late That Afternoon.
"Darling, Irv has pulled an unexpected board meeting for tonight that I need to attend. Are you going to be alright?" Miranda said as she hurried into the kitchen, clasping a bracelet around her wrist as she stood next to Andy.
Andy nodded. "Yes, go, I'm not a child."
Miranda leaned forward and kissed Andrea's cheek, ignoring the annoyed words of her lover. "I'll be home as soon as I can be. I love you." she said.
"Love you too." Andy replied before turning back to her newspaper she was reading and listening as Miranda's heels clacked down the hall way before exiting the townhouse. She sighed and was glad that she was going to have some time to herself.
9:35PM.
Andy had been home alone for a few hours now and the lonliness was starting to get to her. From where she was sitting in the kitchen at the table she heard the front door open and closed. She listened for the clacking of Miranda's heels but frowned when she didn't hear them. She stood and walked to the door and saw Alex nearing her. She moved back over to the counter just as Alex entered the room.
Alex walked over to stand next to Andy.
They were silent for a couple of seconds until Andy turned on the coffee machine. "Did you want a drink?" she asked. She looked at Alex who nodded her head. Needing mugs she leaned forward in front of Alex and grabbed two from the sink where they had been drying.
Andy's shirt lifted from the movement and Alex couldn't help but see the skin that had been revealed and she saw an edge of a scar. She touched the skin softly with her hand and Andy flinched and stepped away.
"What are you doing?" Andy asked, staring at her.
"You haven't shown me what they did to you." Alex replied,"And well I couldn't help but seeing what I saw just then."
Andy walked over to the window and looked out. She closed her eyes. She couldn't let Alex see what they did to her. It was bad enough when Miranda saw. "I can't, Alex."
Alex walked over to Andy and stood behind her. "Let me."
Andy sighed, knowing that Alex wouldn't let up, lifted the back of her tee shirt. She felt Alex's hands touching her back.
"If I were to find them I'd kill them for hurting you like this." Alex said.
Andy didn't exactly hear her though as flashes of the day they scarred her back flashed behind her closed eyes. Tears began welling up in her eyes and her body began shaking.
Alex noticed and turned Andy around and pulled the brunette into her arms and just held her as Andy sobbed her pain. Her eyes closing and tears trailing silently down her own cheeks.
Andy pulled away and they stared into one anothers eyes. Before they knew what was happening Alex had moved forward and their lips met in a soft and slightly hesitant kiss.
Alex pulled away a couple seconds later and they stared silently at one another. "Don't you dare fucking scare me like that again, you got that?" Alex said firmly, both knowing she was referencing to Andy's being taken, before she turned around and left the room leaving Andy to process what had just happened.
It wasn't long after Alex left that Miranda arrived home and she found Andy in the same posistion in the kitchen. "Is everything alright darling?" Miranda asked, pulling Andy from her thoughts.
"Um," Andy looked up at Miranda. Her heart pounded in her chest. She had no idea if she should tell Miranda what happened or not. Deciding on the truth because she didn't want to keep anything from Miranda she nodded. "Um yeah, Alex and I, we um, kissed."
Miranda blinked a couple of times at what she'd just heard.
"It, it didn't mean anything, well not, I mean, I don't want to jump into bed with her or anything, she's my best friend, you have to know that I don't want to her in that way." Andy rambled on nervously. She didn't want Miranda to get angry or upset over this.
Miranda, unpredictable as ever, surprised Andy by laughing. "You're rambling and nervous when there's no need to be. So you both shared a kiss? I know you wouldn't go running off with her in that way, not because I know you say you'd never cheat on me, but because, well, it's Alexandra." she chuckled again. "The two of you are great friends but I don't think you both would suit being lovers."
Andy stared at Miranda. "So you aren't mad with me then?"
Miranda shook her head. "No, of course not." she replied. "But, if it were any other woman then yes, I would be fumeing." she added.
Andy smiled and moved closer to Miranda. "You always surprise me, Miranda."
Miranda smiled back at her. "I'm glad."
They kissed before Miranda took Andy's hand. "I'm absolutely exhausted after that meeting."
"I'll run you a bath before you sleep then." Andy replied as she walked with Miranda down the hall.
Miranda looked at Andy. "Thank you darling."
Miranda smiled. For tonight she was just going to enjoy being with Andrea in the moment and forget about what would be happening tomorrow and followed Andrea upstairs.
~*~
TBC...