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[dumblemop]

Good question.

Why am I here? Where's my motivation? What happened to going to class because I like physics, I like math, I like computers, I like to learn

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[dumblemop]

Yeah...communication, even (especially?) if it's with yourself, is always better than stewing. I'm learning that.

Yeah...I guess not only do I not have a real reason not to, I don't understand why people do it in the first place.

[clotpolelis]

*huggles* What matters now is that you're out of it. And even when the two of you were a couple, I still counted you as a friend... But damn am I glad she isn't speaking to you. I was really really worried about you the whole time you two were together, because I could just see you withdrawing more and more from the world... You have no idea how happy it made me to find you again back to the person you were when I first met you.

And I remember my freshman year Izzie and I stayed up late one night discussing whether we thought she was a vampire who'd stolen your soul or something. Ah, the old days.

You kick ass, m'dear. Just thought I'd tell you that.

[dumblemop]

I always wondered if anyone noticed. Thank you for caring. I wasn't sure whether I could bounce back but I guess I have.

Wow, honestly? You're awesome. <3

Well, thanks. It means a lot that you're still my friend.

[sara_the_lazy]

Finding your purpose... that's something that I don't think ever really gets clear to anyone. Finding what you want to do for yourself not for others... that's almost as hard. But i think it's ok if you acknowledge the fact that others do influence your actions. Yes, it's important to choose for yourself, but if the people you love influence you... well, that isn't a huge problem. Don't let it feel like you aren't you just because of it. If that makes any sense

[dumblemop]

Yeah, you're getting these entries like looong after I've already gotten to the "fuck it" stage. :) But I appreciate the advice.

*heart*

Yeah. I have ample opportunity at school because a good 3/4s of my friends like to drink, but so far I haven't bitten. Although I don't trust half of that 3/4 enough in the first place, and I promised Liz my alcoholic virginity. Heh.

[sara_the_lazy]

Heh, i know. My fault for not being on LJ more, but i try to put in my 2 cents.

*less than three* /dork moment

Wow, that's a big proportion of friends drinking, for me i think it's maybe 50%? Still a lot.

~Sara

[dumblemop]

Hm...I mean, there's the people I spend a lot of time with in Freedom, and you and Ulrich are the only non- or mostly non-drinkers. And of the people I spend a lot of time with on my floor, only my roommate, KT, and Justin don't drink. So that other quarter is really people that I'm ostensibly friends with (mostly other CWITs) but don't spend a lot of time with anyway so of course don't spend time with them in an alcoholic environment.

Or something. It's kind of funny...when I was in high school I don't think I knew anyone (that I knew of at the time, though, I guess) who really drank. But I didn't really have friends in high school, so it's not really a comparable data pool.