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[dumblemop]

Good question.

Why am I here? Where's my motivation? What happened to going to class because I like physics, I like math, I like computers, I like to learn

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[sara_the_lazy]

Finding your purpose... that's something that I don't think ever really gets clear to anyone. Finding what you want to do for yourself not for others... that's almost as hard. But i think it's ok if you acknowledge the fact that others do influence your actions. Yes, it's important to choose for yourself, but if the people you love influence you... well, that isn't a huge problem. Don't let it feel like you aren't you just because of it. If that makes any sense.

In terms of emotional problems... feel free to talk to me about that. I'm one of those people who's a mixed bag of issues... Mainly depression and anxiety with sprinklings of bipolar and ocd. I'm on several medication (those fuckers are expensive for me, but not for everyone) which does help a lot. It works for me, i can still be my crazy weird fun self but not always either a moping or crying nervous wreck or a bouncing off the walls manic scary person. But, like someone said above, not everyone responds well to drugs. And a lot of times you don't need them. I think the fact that you write in this journal so much probably helps with a lot of stuff. And i'm sure lots of peopple can talk to you if you want. Me included.

"There are alcoholism problems in my family, some of my grandparents, but I'm like an alcoholic who's never had a drink."

*nods* that's why i can't let myself drink. Ever.

~Sara

[dumblemop]

Yeah, you're getting these entries like looong after I've already gotten to the "fuck it" stage. :) But I appreciate the advice.

*heart*

Yeah. I have ample opportunity at school because a good 3/4s of my friends like to drink, but so far I haven't bitten. Although I don't trust half of that 3/4 enough in the first place, and I promised Liz my alcoholic virginity. Heh.

[sara_the_lazy]

Heh, i know. My fault for not being on LJ more, but i try to put in my 2 cents.

*less than three* /dork moment

Wow, that's a big proportion of friends drinking, for me i think it's maybe 50%? Still a lot.

~Sara

[dumblemop]

Hm...I mean, there's the people I spend a lot of time with in Freedom, and you and Ulrich are the only non- or mostly non-drinkers. And of the people I spend a lot of time with on my floor, only my roommate, KT, and Justin don't drink. So that other quarter is really people that I'm ostensibly friends with (mostly other CWITs) but don't spend a lot of time with anyway so of course don't spend time with them in an alcoholic environment.

Or something. It's kind of funny...when I was in high school I don't think I knew anyone (that I knew of at the time, though, I guess) who really drank. But I didn't really have friends in high school, so it's not really a comparable data pool.

[sara_the_lazy]

Yeah, none of my friends in high school drank... i was in a close knit group of about 10 though, so that's also not a big pool.

Sara