The pain is finally catching up with me.
Elbow stinging. Sholder aching.
And although the pain is uncomfortable.

Secretly I enjoy it.
Because now I know.
I'm alive.

Nose deep in a book ( Read more... )

Everything is going to be o.k. they tell me I'm sorry is what the others say. I know this. I know all this. I've been through this before. Yet it never gets any easier. The tears are always flowing never stopping. Even when you think you can't cry anymore, you hear his name and shed one more tear. You have no more strength and must regain it ( Read more... )

He walks past me
I hardly know him
Yet I fantasize

Aching to lay my head on his bare chest
Wanting to hear his heart beat
Feel his never-ending warmth

Kiss his chest, neck, and gently his lips,
Run my finger through his hair,
Letting him inside me,
Moving back and forth, back and forth,
Like a sail boat lost at sea.

It’s the end of the world ( Read more... )

My friend of 6 years was in a car accident, he had an aneurism and he was put in intensive care, then life support, to finally a ventilator. He won't get any better and if he gets worse he'll die. He's not expected to make to the morning. I can't believe this is happening only several months from Kevin's suicide

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The pain eats at my heart and soul
Empty, broken, exhausted
Suffering is all that remains of my exsistence

Memories of a long lost love
Consumes my every thought
Blank stares at the clock
Mocks me to get up

Going through the motions
Slowly wasteing away
Wishing for some peace
In this everlasting Hell

Before ( Read more... )