i've run dry from these past couple of days in class.. not in class where i can barely hold back the water that fills my eyes to the point where if i blink im done for and then its "oh shit oh shit please say no one sees me"...i'll get a grip sooner or later. but all i can think about is when next year comes and how all i'll be able to do is ( Read more... )

"everything was fine today" it made me nauseous pretending . . and its great knowing that my dad is willing to get me a puppy because i'll need a companion next year .he laughed. i cried.

spring break was good and the first time in a long time that i was actually home for it which was a good change and i always have summer to go to the tropics and get a nice tan after my damn burn on my back settles down. my prediction was right about every night of break the same type of thing would go down and it was great except for a terrible ( Read more... )

i forgot about St. Patrick's day this morning and when i found out i wanted to go home so i could sport my irish heritage..but instead i covered my hand and colored the bleached pieces in my hair green ( Read more... )

i don't know anymore. i try hard to make things in some way decent again but sometimes i don't think people like to see, or realize that i'm trying because i want to, not because i fee like i "have to". because i don't. i miss my friends, and i hate to think that the friendships i have are somewhat less than what they once were, nothings makes me ( Read more... )

some things are better left unknown.. unsaid but once found out i'm glad i know no matter what feelings come along with it. i need to keep myself busy or entertained, otherwise my mind goes crazy and wonders too far into the "what if's" and "should haves" that i hate more than anything over resolved matters, no matter what things always come back ( Read more... )

four day weekend, and i had to be sick as fuck. my doctor basically slapped me in the face with everything that was wrong with me and the rain didn't help but i love the it and the few times i did get out of my house were great esp. going through massive puddles with joey and my window down. its amazing. (the water doesn't come in, try it.)even ( Read more... )

my throat is dry, i better not be getting sick damnit.
i hunger for a rollercoster like a killers wife.

the spill canvas is not helping shit, but i love it ( Read more... )

i've been craving to make this trip since the beginning of last year.. and still no go
i want and need to go on a ride,
magic mountain anyone?