see it there but its so far ahead, go numb from how bad i want it

[drunkencarousal]

they say realizing you have a problem is the first step on the road to recovery. this is an axiom designed for those with fragile egos and a self-destructive level of pride, because what they fail to mention is that it is a miniscule step on a very long fucking road. i don't have a problem with acknowledging that i have a problem, in fact i think i

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[difyr]

Man, I have been doing the exact same thing, for real. It doesn't help that the starting chapter of the fic I'm trying to write has a bunch of people going "omg it's so good" in the reviews that make me go "oh man I can't live up to this." It's not even like it's really what I'd call writer's block it's like I just can't bring myself to actually write what I'm thinking of. SUCKAGE.

But yeah I can very relate.

I miss you dammit. I miss talking to you for hours in the dorm room while ignoring things I should be doing. It made my insomnia almost worth it.

[drunkencarousal]

lol i miss you too. we need to come up an excuse to visit eachother. half-blood prince is too far away.

i've never felt much pressure to live up to other people's expectations, though i have gotten some nice reviews for my dragon's bait story. but mostly for the 1st chapter, the 2nd doesn't have many views :( but right now i'm trying to a one shot hannibal fic, which if i ever manage to get it written, i feel like you would love. i also want to write an inside fic. i have too many ideas, its driving me crazy.

[difyr]

Well it's not so much other people's expectations as the fact that them spazzing over it makes me reread it because i'm like "pssh it can't have been that good, geez." and then I read it and go "Wtf I wrote this?" My tendency to forget my ability to write always ends up either pleasantly surprising, or very scary. It's weird because I have to live up to myself. o.O No no, more like, I want to one up myself. Weirdness.

I still need to check out your fic, actually. And man I should start reading more real books. All I've been doing is playing Persona 3 and reading light novels.