Why it still upsets me is beyond me. I am sobbing mess.

I really really don't like this feeling. Not one bit. And it's so far out of my control. I wish I could say this and get my point across but I honestly don't think it would matter. Fuck it. I'm worrying about something that is out of my control.

I'm trying to think reasonably. But I just can't ever see myself in that position. EVER. I don't know how to fix this, I don't think it's going to be fixed and thats kind of a bummer. Oh well.

I just don't feel like myself :(

madmadmadmadmadmadmadmadmadmadmadmadmadmad.

oh and stupidstupidstupidstupidstupid.

Go fuck yourself.

I'm outside the circle and I fucking hate it.

I love cats way more than dogs. The end. Haha.

Hanging out at my parents house, watching Comedy Central and just hanging out. I love them and they make me so happy!

If everyone else can be that way, then fuck it...I will too.