Dream on

[ddd_zack]

Right, so I was talking to somebody the other day, and I think I figured out what my problem is. I don't have any dreams right now. I passed on my last dream to a friend when I thought I was dying, and it's his, now.

I mean, I'm still gonna be a hero, no doubt about that. But I don't have anything I'm doing right now to try to achieve that. Angeal

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[company_bitch]

You are a hero, Zack.

Maybe there's something you can do to make yourself feel that way more. Have you talked to Reeve at all?

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[ddd_zack]

Uh... shit, not since the whole shadow thing. I should apologize to him, at least.

I don't wanna do anything that might seem like me trying to worm my way into the place that's Cloud's now, though. He always was so damned insecure about that sort of thing.

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[company_bitch]

Cloud has his place, and you have yours. There's room for both of you on Gaia, Zack.

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[ddd_zack]

Right, but my point is anything Reeve might need a former SOLDIER for, he's already got Cloud and knows him better. Anyway, it'd be makework, just like the rebuilding I've been doing here.

[falselineage]

You don't think you're a hero already?

[ddd_zack]

Well, that's not the point. Or maybe it is, because I'm already a hero, that means I have nothing to work towards. So let's just say it's still my plan, okay?

[falselineage]

This planet needs someone like you to help protect it.

[ddd_zack]

Heh. It has someone like me to help protect it.

Cloud.

No, seriously, it's not that I wouldn't jump right in and help if I was needed. Well, this past stupid shadow thing aside. But that's still not a dream.

[calculatus]

Responsibility.

I don't have dreams, they're too idealistic.

[ddd_zack]

They're not idealistic, they're necessary. Call 'em 'goals' if it makes you feel better.

[calculatus]

Goals and dreams aren't necessarily the same.

[mnkeywrenchjams]

Dreams? I dunno, man, I used to think I knew what I wanted, but a lot's changed in the past year. If anything, I want to find out who I really am.

[ddd_zack]

I know how that goes - having everything change on you, I mean. Finding out who you really are is a good dream.

[mnkeywrenchjams]

Yeah, I totally didn't expect it, either. But I'm glad it happened, you know? Even if some parts of it weren't so great.

You think so? I wanted to be a hero before, but- someone showed me that that's not what I really want. So I'll keep searching, until I find it.

[ddd_zack]

Good! Just don't give up, that's the important thing. If more people knew what they really wanted, instead of just going along with whatever comes up, I think the world'd be a lot better off.

[urbandev]

These days, I dream mostly of a real night's sleep.

[ddd_zack]

Heh, I can understand that.

[Locked]

Hey listen, Reeve, about what I said last time... I'm sorry.

[urbandev]

Ahh well. There;s still work to be done in Junon and Edge, now.

[Locked]

That was your shadow, Zack, and not you. You have nothing to apologize for.

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[ddd_zack]

Yeah, well, that's the whole problem with shadows... it was me, just a part of me I don't like admitting to. So I do owe you an apology, but it won't happen again.