Someone explain it to me?

[tiedbydestiny]

Is it really possible to be so smart that you become so bored with life you'd throw yourself off a building just for something to do?

I can't understand why anyone would kill themselves. I fought so hard to live I became a zombie. I didn't have anything particularly special to live for; just life itself is worth it. But this... it's just boredom!

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[tiedbyfate]

It's not your fault.

I can't explain it. I don't know why anyone would kill themselves. But it's not your fault, Akatsuki.

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[tiedbydestiny]

But... you heard what he said.

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[tiedbyfate]

And he needed you to have a reason to live? Fuck him. He was an idiot.

Besides, you actually believe a word that sack of shit said?!

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[tiedbydestiny]

HEY, I...

oh, forget it. I don't have the energy to fight with you right now. Fine, you win, he was a sack of shit. Happy?

[know_sacrifice]

....That...does not sound like a good reason to kill yourself, no.

[tiedbydestiny]

Right? I mean... I can understand the turning into a homicidal maniac part. If I was as crazy as he was, I mean. But killing himself out of boredom?

[know_sacrifice]

Yeah, that's not, like. Anything they warn us about when they're telling us about suicide and stuff. But if he was crazy, I guess it's different...?

[tiedbydestiny]

But it... wasn't that kind of crazy, if that makes any sense. I mean, maybe it was. What the hell do I know about being crazy? I didn't even know he was crazy until he pulled the whole 'evil master plan monologue' thing at the very end.

What the hell kind of friend was I?

[reliablekiller]

People will often make up excuses to 'validate' commiting suicide. But they generally just that...excuses.

I think most people cannot comprehend the desire to kill themselves, in most situations. It's just...not the way our brains are designed to work. Most people will fight tooth and nail for every second of life that they can get, no matter how much they have to struggle for it.

It comes as small comfort I imagine, but you really can't blame yourself. If a person isn't...intent on living...there's almost nothing you can do to stop them from killing themselves eventually.

[tiedbydestiny]

I guess. I just... I dunno, feel bad that I didn't even realize anything was WRONG. Or that I was THAT important to him. And damn it, if he was that smart, how come he wasn't smart enough to figure out a better way to deal?

[reliablekiller]

I don't know why he could not have thought of some other way to deal. Because I cannot think the way someone who would kill themselves would think. It's a question you'll never really get an answer to, sadly.

I mean, if I am depressed or bored, I think "Okay, what can I do to fix this, how can I make it better?" Some people just can't do that. When they're feeling depressed, they can't See a way to make it better. They just dwell and dwell until there's no options left.

[tiedbydestiny]

Yeah, I guess he used to be like that, but I never noticed because I was always the one coming up with stuff for us to do, so he never got that bored.

Then he shouldn't have gone away to that stupid high school, if he needed me that much.

[hok_ton]

I have know people to do similar things. If the world is no longer interesting - or if one feels as if one is unnecessary or unneeded - then removing oneself from the world makes far more sense.