I have nothing to say. Not much to be thankful for. Except my kids I guess.

Just watching a movie with my kids on a Saturday night. Nothing too exciting.

Not much to make me laugh or smile much anymore.

I watched the rest of His Dark Materials with London. We both liked it a lot. I watched the ending by myself first, I cried a lot, because I could ( Read more... )

Also there was this weird guy at the grocery store last night who tried to give my kids some flowers he bought for his "fiance" but didn't need them anymore then took a photo of my kids. We threw them out.

I’m going to try to practice writing in here again. And do it as much as possible every day. I know I always say that I am going to do that and never do but really gonna try this time.

Yesterday Nadia was sick so we stayed home from school. I worked, and we went out later in the afternoon and took a drive by the beach and went to the lookout at ( Read more... )

I figured I should write about this somewhere, somewhere semi private. No one on here knows who I am, or even checks this, or cares for that matter. And that’s ok.

I constantly run into this sadness. But I am suppposed to be happy in order to be successful. But I can’t seem to ever be happy, and it does not seem like I will be again.

My happiness ( Read more... )

Woke up feeling very sluggish. Time for the vitamins again.

Feeling just very lonely and apathetic about everything, and that I’m worthless and everyone hates me.

Gotta get a lot done!!!!!!!!

Hi test just testing from my phone!!!!

Wow!!!!!

I'm going to start writing again. I'm a grown woman now. Or, one would hope...

I have much to tell. Much to get out. This is personal.

I... don't care who reads my drafts. I don't recall who I was connected with on here - except maybe a couple.

Will continue this soon.

I have a lot to explain to my previous self. It will take some time.

is the most honest journal I have of myself anywhere. I am now 41. I started this when I was ... 23? Yeah. I need some time to think... of what to say.

Maybe I should go back to not using caps.

and just say i am stuff.