Comments | dragonteeth: I fucking hate life. I should be fucking happy with only one day of school left.

dragonteeth

I fucking hate life. I should be fucking happy with only one day of school left.

Apr 12, 2006 20:31

Long entry, but huge stuff happening. Way too much shit going on right now. My brain can't process it all. I fucking hate dating. I hate instability. Gave a kick ass presentation at clinic today and Dr thinks I'm wonderful and smart. Tomorrow is my last day of school. yay. ( Read more... )

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cinnamona666 April 13 2006, 02:47:36 UTC

EEEPSSS!!!!!!!!!!
thats a lot of stress hun.. i wouldnt be 'on top of the world either'

anyway.. i think there is always this 'let down' phenomena after such huge achievement..

and 'supposed to' needs to die >_<

the week youll be in tucson is a busy week for me.. but if you get stuck..ill be here for you =). you will NOT be stuck in alone if im in town dammit!!!!!!! =) although house shopping blows much ass >_<

xoxox

dragonteeth April 13 2006, 13:53:09 UTC

Don't worry. My parents are driving thru town to help me house hunt, and then up to visit my sister in phoenix. I also have that wedding in Northern AZ...

Yea, ending school is kinda anticlimatic.

:(

blindness April 13 2006, 03:26:24 UTC

Aw, Karen, sorry to hear you're having a rough night. It's not so bad that you slept with Matt, nor that you want to see Jeff so much. You have been so honest with Jeff so I don't think he should be angry with you. It's understandable that you feel closer to him; there isn't anything wrong with that! It's a great thing that you are doing: being honest and opening your heart. I admire you.

dragonteeth April 13 2006, 13:59:06 UTC

Yeah, Jeff's def not angry with me. And I told him several times it wasn't fair for me to ask him to be monogamous when I wasn't planning on going to tucson that way. he did say he didn't want to sleep with anyone else, but he didn't say he wanted monogamy. He was just hurt because he thought, "I was all his."

It was "just sex" with Matt, but he'll never believe that.

Now I want more, and he's the one telling me that an exclusive relationship long distance is not possible. But he still wants to play and come see me in tucson and CO and... Right now I feel so shitty... It's hard for me to imagine repairing this in time to have fun tonight. the end of school.... the terrible timing of life. I hate it. ugh.

okay, i have 5 hours to figure out how I'm going to be happy and in love with life again! I will do it!

lucid_whisper April 13 2006, 15:04:23 UTC

Karen,

That is good that you were honest with Jeff. Good luck with everything, hun.

*HUGS*
~Krystal