i've had this "journal" since i was a freshman in high school.
i'm now a senior in college.

Ticking away the moments that make up a dull day ( Read more... )

does anyone write in this thing anymore?

it's 3:35am, and finals start in a few hours.
i have dunkin' donuts and adderal to thank for being up this late.

i'm four days away from being a college senior.
where did the past three years go?

i stopped taking my anti-depressant and anxiety pills almost a month ago. i never told anyone. now i know why i was on them. i think i'm going to start taking them again. i'm sick of my mood swings. i hate crying for no reason. my life is a complete mess.

i want all of you.
forever.
you and me.
every day.

well, you called me last night for the first time in a while. i was surprised. i thought you for sure hated me after what happened a few months ago. guess not. for the first time in a while, i thought maybe things were gonna be different and that you were gonna give me a chance to explain how i felt and you were going to listen. just knowing that ( Read more... )

i have a month left. a month left to do what i've set out to do this whole summer. out of all my goals that i've wanted to accomplish, there's still that one that's haunting me.

i'm sick of feeling like i need you, knowing i never did... but i miss you.

i saw you tonight, for the first time in about a month. you were with that ugly blonde hussy. yes, i just used the word 'hussy.' can you ever just date someone who isn't jailbate?! and can you ever not date a girl more than once!? i don't get it. why do you always go back to the same girls? ha, like i should be talking. aren't i the one trying to ( Read more... )

it's not easy not answering
every time i want to talk to you
but i can't
if you only knew the hell i put myself through
replaying memories in my head of you and i
every night

well kids, long time no write. i don't know what's been going on with me lately, i've been in a different world or something ( Read more... )

nothing beats being drunk in the city with three of your best friends. doing the dance to "it's going down" surrounded by dozens of black people.

my life, is hilarious.