My insomnia is back. Has been for a while. It left in March... returned in August. No longer could I sleep. My mind was racing forward a month. Preparing itself for little sleep. Preparing itself for this. One day not too long ago, I got 3 hours of sleep. It didn't phase me the whole day. Then, I heard his voice... scratchy and bruised, but still ( Read more... )

I miss Ben. I miss him bad ( Read more... )

I am terribly bored. Time is passing far too slowly. I canot even believe I have to wait another 79 days till I can even see my husband. Then it's only for 5 hours... then I have to wait till the next damn day. Then finally.... FINALLY he can be in my arms ( Read more... )

So, before Ben left, he was working for this man, Brother Goodwin, who went to church for him. He rarely went but when he did, he got 16 bucks an hour for yardwork, office work, etc. Well, the last two days of work, I went with him, not expecting to be paid. I just wanted to spend every moment possible with him. Well, they asked me if I could work ( Read more... )

So, Ben was supposed to leave yesterday right ( Read more... )

My husband leaves for bootcamp in about 36 hours ( Read more... )

I've been sneaking out your back door ( Read more... )

I can't even write anything in here anymore. I don't trust anyone. I don't even trust my own damn emotions. I guess all it boils down to is I'm lonely.

The first 14 are from yesterday!

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Oh, just so you all know...
I'm getting married tomorrow.